Monologue From Pride And Prejudice By Jane Austen

When I first read your letter, anger filled inside of me. The words “I had detached Mr. Bingley from your sister” hit me the hardest (Austen 129). I thought, how dare you sabotage my sister’s relationship with your friend, Mr. Bingley. It was not your place to go ahead and jump to conclusions about Jane’s feelings. She could be head over heels for him and you still would not know about any of it. As I continued walking, my anger grew. Then, I crumbled the paper up and threw it on the ground while continually pacing back and forth. Minutes later, I picked your letter back up and read over it once more. I was able to calm myself down to understand your words. Not only am I saddened with myself for blaming you, but I am also disappointed in my family. Before you wrote, “this situation of your mother’s family”, I
Do not get me wrong, at the first Ball you were a jerk, considering first impressions are imperative! Since overhearing your conversation with Mr. Bingley about how no girl is noble enough to dance with you, I avoided you at all costs. I continuously dodged you, no matter who tried to pressure us to dance. Then Wickham arrived and I automatically fell for him. He made you appear as an even worse person than I had thought before. Miss Bingley warned me not to listen to Wickham, but her opinions did not seem to matter to me. I regret the automatic assumptions I made towards you and oh how I wish I could take them back. How much easier life would have been if I accepted your grant to dance with me in the first place. Maybe if that happened, Jane would not be struggling with Mr. Bingley either. I hate the guilt I hold about shunning you. Since I met you, I was blinded about how you felt about me or anyone else. I questioned your actions towards me and whether they were genuine or you were doing it in a disrespectful manner. I cannot blame you anymore for Jane and Mr. Bingley not working