Like the author of “The Emotional Cutoff” I have on occasion felt that I too was “Sick of it. Done” The author adds: “In many ways, my story is not unique. Many of the folks in our Unitarian Universality congregations come out of similar experiences, and carry similar wounds”
Upon arrival in the US and meandering through the challenges of the new world, my grandmother said about a University diploma I was awarded that had dating errors in it, “ Don't let anyone define who you are. Don't accept a diploma that they say is yours, but has information that does not pertain to you.” My father said: “We have been fighting white people since you were a child in the Apartheid and there you are again....don't let them crucify you for their sins. Jesus has already done that.”
Coupled with my families' counsel and diverse insights from others, I read a book on moral injury written by Reverends Brock and Rebekah Ann Parker: Proverbs of Ashes. Following this reading I would cease letting anyone dictate how I feel, what I feel, how and when and if to forgive. …show more content…
I discovered that moral injury was the appropriate description of my experience. I felt like I had insulted myself and I felt uncertain of myself for having been involved in the anti-apartheid movement in Southern Africa, where I joined the church ,which I found upon arrival in the US that it had at one time in history prohibited black priesthood. As I went through this process I requested the then Mormon prophet to come up with ways of letting blacks know before they join the Mormon Church their place in history of the church. I was afraid to come out in public to face people I had recruited for the Mormon Church, but I was “done” with covering my moral injuries and have since met most of my challenges bluntly before they cut new Mormon wounds that I worked hard to