Reputation-Personal Narrative

When I was younger I was an unemotional kid who for whatever reason people were intimidated by me. This has managed to follow me throughout my life although I have been slowly losing the reputation as a cold fish as I move to different schools. When I went from Elementary school to Junior High a lot of that reputation was lost because I was no longer a part of the popular kids, but no matter if I wasn’t trying to put out that vibe, it always resurfaced and is apparently just a part of my personality. Even in high school, I was apparently intimidating, especially to other girls. One of my really good friends now even wrote in my yearbook that she was afraid of me originally but then realized I was very friendly and I asked my roommates what
I’ve even been complimented on the part of me that appears that way from friends who didn’t appear as “strong” as I did, one friend saying she wished she would stay true to herself like I did and not taking shit from people and this made me feel amazing to know people viewed me a. As I continue to embrace this reputation there are definitely benefits but there are also disadvantages. One problem is that to make a good impression with people I have to pile on the niceness a little more than I normally would and it goes fine from there but if I never talk to someone who for example worked at the same place as me they might think the worse without getting to know the real me. This is a definite problem and one that I struggle to get over especially because I’m more on the introverted side and if I don’t make a good impression it’s going to stay bad. Today, being viewed as a bitch also viewed in a weird way, as if somehow I’m trying to take power that I’m not owed and it starts to get really dicey if you’re an outright feminist and people often take it the wrong