Courtney L. Zellars
December 19, 2011
Journey from My Past to My Future
Growing and developing into the person I am now has been quite a journey. I have had so many ups and downs throughout my development, from childhood to adulthood, that it feels as though I am in a whirlwind. However, I have managed to stay strong and succeed in everything I have set my mind to so far. As I talk about my journey in this paper, I will relate a few of my experiences that have helped me to develop into the young adult that I am today. Once I have talked about my past and present development, I will briefly touch on the goals I want to accomplish in the future.
I grew up in a family that was close-knit, yet distant at the same time. My parents had three girls, and I just happened to be their second one, which makes me the middle child. As the middle child, I struggled to get attention and I began to feel neglected after my younger sister was born. My sisters were spoiled rotten, while I was left to practically fend for myself the majority of the time. Being the middle child also meant that I was blamed for everything my sisters did wrong. My experience, as the middle child in my family, taught me how to be self-sufficient at an early age. In a sense, it was a benefit to have become self-sufficient when my family began to experience financial hardship.
My family, like many other families, has experienced financial hardships on a number of occasions. During those times, my sisters had to adjust to not being able to have what they wanted, whereas, I was already accustomed to not being able to have or get what I wanted. My parents had to deal with the constant whining and complaining from my two sisters and I was steadily withdrawing from everyone. Financial hardships caused more than just complaining from my siblings. It caused my siblings and me to get picked on, in school, about the clothes and shoes we wore. My parents could not afford to buy all the latest fashions during our school days. The fact that I was overweight and shy made the picking even worse for me. Sometimes my clothes wouldn't fit right and the kids at school would make fun of me all day. Other times, I was picked on because I had big feet and my parents could only afford to buy what the kids at school called “pie crust” shoes for me. Despite all the negativity, I managed to stay out of trouble in school, even though I really wanted to beat up the kids who always picked on me. The only reason I was able to keep myself calm was because I found other ways to release my frustrations.
When I reached seventh grade, I was put in an art exploratory class. Being in that class taught me to put my frustration into drawings and paintings. Drawing became a sort of hobby for me after that and I still use drawing today to get away from everything temporarily. Another hobby, that I picked up from school, was the art of writing poetry. I have written enough to have my very own book of poetry, and I am constantly adding more of my poems to the pile. Writing has become a wonderful way to relieve my stress and a way to get things off my chest that I would otherwise hold inside. Drawing and writing poetry are just two of my stress relieving hobbies.
Two other hobbies, that I recently discovered through school and work, are singing and photography. Although I have always loved music, I didn't realize how much of a stress reliever it could be until I reached high school and joined a show choir group. This group not only helped me to relieve stress, through singing and performing on stage, but it also helped me with my communication skills and I developed a deeper respect for diversity. According to the book Adult Development and Life Assessment, groups offer needed support, and for that support we often are willing to give up some of our free will. Generally, the groups that we belong to offer us some sort of reward...