Napoleon Bonaparte Journal Entry

Napoleon anxiously paced back and forth across his study. His window was opened slightly, and the chirps and songs of various birds could be heard echoing across the busy city of Paris. Often, Napoleon could hardly tell the difference between the songs of these animals and the countless conversations that all seemed to translate into one constant noise. These sounds only succeeded to aggravate him further, so he walked to the window and closed it. “Merde…” Napoleon murmured under his breath. “Where is this god-forsaken banker!? I suppose I never should have trusted such a businessman with such a task.” His banker Collot, a trusted friend, was put in charge of financing the coup that would unfold over the next few days. Maintaining an army
He rose quietly out of his bed, careful not to awaken his wife. He had told her little of his plans to seize power, although he was certain that she was aware he had been planning something. She was an intelligent woman; he hadn’t expected her to stay completely in the dark. Josephine was not entirely trustworthy, as Bonaparte suspected her of infidelities. He was not sure if he loved her any longer, and was thinking of divorce, but he figured it best to keep his feelings secret until a better time. The preparations that had been taking place over the last week had been too important, as this would be one of the most influential events of his life. The coup was not engineered by Napoleon himself, which was one of the only reasons he doubted its reliability. A friend and one of the five directors, Abbé Sieyès, had designed the coup, and was to take place as one of the consuls in the newly created government. Napoleon doubted the abilities of his coconspirators, more than his own, as he was very confident that he would perform flawlessly. He felt that this was an unfamiliar scenario, and it was frightening. The natural environment for Napoleon was a battlefield, in which he could control his forces and crush his enemy the one way he was proud of: with honor and wits. This plan almost seemed.. cowardly. No other choice seemed as responsible, though, as Napoleon was aware that the Directory was not fit to stay in power. Knowing he would lead France to glory was empowering to Napoleon, and helped him stay optimistic towards his