My Grandma's Negative Effects On My Body

Have you ever hear someone say, “Does she look pretty?” to another person about you? I have hear people say that, but I never believe them. The effects of my grandma’s negative comments about my body like I watch what I eat more than normal, my self-esteem is more sensitive, I do not talk or go see my grandma anymore. There are several effects of grandma’s negative behavior had on me about my body.
One effect is watching what I eat more than normal. My grandmother would have me eat more then I should eat. She would tell me why I eat so much. Therefore, I would eat to make her happy, but I end up gaining weight. Like said in Rowing the Bus,” I knew, before I stepped onto the field or court, that I would do something clumsy or foolish and that
I would not talk to my grandmother often because she always had negative comments about me. She would compared me to other girls. It would make me think of being fat and not skinny like all the other girls I see. In Swimming Pool says ,” Does it make her happy that she has no need, right now, of ingratiation, of acting fool to salve her loneliness?” when I talk to my grandma she never look at positive features of my body. She would say my curves are too big. It made me want to hide my curves by wear loose shirts and dresses. In Swimming Pool says,” she is like the lower middle class, that fatal group handed crumbs so they can drop a few down lower, to the poor, so they won’t kill the rich.” I do not talk to my grandma because every time I talk to her she makes me feel like I am not good enough for anyone. In Swimming Pool says” All around the apt. swimming pool there is what’s everywhere: forsakenness and fear, a disdain for those beneath us rather that a rage against the ones above: the exploiters, the oblivious and unabashedly cruel.” I do not feel comfortable anymore to show my body in a swimsuit or in a nice dress because I am remind of my body not being perfect like