Lucian's POV Monologue
LUCIAN'S POV
(Soundtrack for this part: Sad by Josh Rouse)
Things started to change, Noelle became someone significant in my life. Someone I could stare at for a long time, I don’t want to understand what I am feeling because I have always been the worst person to handle emotions.
Dreams about her came to my mind every night, no more nightmares but dreams that made me feel good and so fatal at the same time. Good because in my dreams she knew about my feelings and we were one. My dreams were the only place where I could meet her and call her mine and bad because reality is reality that would never happen.
Open your eyes Lucian, Noelle is the kind of girl that deserves a boyfriend not you but a boyfriend. "Which artist do you like?" I randomly …show more content…
I chew faster. I know that my mom suspects something but can't she just be less obvious? I frown at her.
"Yeah" I murmur. "Maybe you can stay here tonight?" my dad suggests. I can't process until I understand. He wants Noelle to spend the night here! I choke on my salad and cough loudly. I think that I'm the obvious one.
I have everybody's attention which was the last thing I wanted.
"That's a g-great i-idea" I cover my mouth and take a sip from my glass. "Lucian, that's my glass" Noelle giggles. Oh my god. I blush intensely.
I wish I could press a button and delete everything I just did. But there is no rewind button or delete button. I would need one.
"S-sorry" I stutter. The rest of the dinner, I keep my mouth shut.
"This movie is so boring!" I complain as Noelle sits next to me. Maybe it's not that bad.
"It's not!" she argues back. "It's Mean Girls!" I groan and eat from the bag of popcorn. "You have never watched Mean Girls!"
"Because it's a movie for chicks"
"Well, I love it. I say that it is a movie for everybody"
I press pause and throw popcorn at her; I can see how she laughs. I didn't expect …show more content…
I pretend like I'm thinking. "Ughh really?" I groan even though I'm jumping of excitement inside of me.
"Yes! Do you have a bottle?"
"We can use one of my pill bottles"
She jumps up and returns with a small bottle, the one's that takes away the anxiety. She looks eagerly at me. Why is she so fucking gorgeous? I can't take my mind away. I'm trapped in her, so stupidly stuck.
She twirls the bottle and then claps her hands happily with a triumphant smile. "True or dare?" she asks when the bottle is on me.
"True" I roll my eyes pretending to look irritated. I'm waiting for her question so eager. "What's your favorite song?"
"Run by Snow Patrol" I answer directly and twirl the bottle again. My fingers are shaking. I can't believe she's staying here tonight. The bottle turns round and round. I can't believe that she's looking at me?
"Dare!" she smiles. I giggle nervously. I'm so pathetic. I'm thinking of so many different options. "Nothing nasty" she interrupts my thoughts. I burst out in laughter. "Yell Penis from my window"
"How childish!" she complains. I can't contain myself; I have never laughed so much in my entire life.
Noelle walks towards the window and opens it. "You're going to die" she giggles. She opens the window and
(Soundtrack for this part: Sad by Josh Rouse)
Things started to change, Noelle became someone significant in my life. Someone I could stare at for a long time, I don’t want to understand what I am feeling because I have always been the worst person to handle emotions.
Dreams about her came to my mind every night, no more nightmares but dreams that made me feel good and so fatal at the same time. Good because in my dreams she knew about my feelings and we were one. My dreams were the only place where I could meet her and call her mine and bad because reality is reality that would never happen.
Open your eyes Lucian, Noelle is the kind of girl that deserves a boyfriend not you but a boyfriend. "Which artist do you like?" I randomly …show more content…
I chew faster. I know that my mom suspects something but can't she just be less obvious? I frown at her.
"Yeah" I murmur. "Maybe you can stay here tonight?" my dad suggests. I can't process until I understand. He wants Noelle to spend the night here! I choke on my salad and cough loudly. I think that I'm the obvious one.
I have everybody's attention which was the last thing I wanted.
"That's a g-great i-idea" I cover my mouth and take a sip from my glass. "Lucian, that's my glass" Noelle giggles. Oh my god. I blush intensely.
I wish I could press a button and delete everything I just did. But there is no rewind button or delete button. I would need one.
"S-sorry" I stutter. The rest of the dinner, I keep my mouth shut.
"This movie is so boring!" I complain as Noelle sits next to me. Maybe it's not that bad.
"It's not!" she argues back. "It's Mean Girls!" I groan and eat from the bag of popcorn. "You have never watched Mean Girls!"
"Because it's a movie for chicks"
"Well, I love it. I say that it is a movie for everybody"
I press pause and throw popcorn at her; I can see how she laughs. I didn't expect …show more content…
I pretend like I'm thinking. "Ughh really?" I groan even though I'm jumping of excitement inside of me.
"Yes! Do you have a bottle?"
"We can use one of my pill bottles"
She jumps up and returns with a small bottle, the one's that takes away the anxiety. She looks eagerly at me. Why is she so fucking gorgeous? I can't take my mind away. I'm trapped in her, so stupidly stuck.
She twirls the bottle and then claps her hands happily with a triumphant smile. "True or dare?" she asks when the bottle is on me.
"True" I roll my eyes pretending to look irritated. I'm waiting for her question so eager. "What's your favorite song?"
"Run by Snow Patrol" I answer directly and twirl the bottle again. My fingers are shaking. I can't believe she's staying here tonight. The bottle turns round and round. I can't believe that she's looking at me?
"Dare!" she smiles. I giggle nervously. I'm so pathetic. I'm thinking of so many different options. "Nothing nasty" she interrupts my thoughts. I burst out in laughter. "Yell Penis from my window"
"How childish!" she complains. I can't contain myself; I have never laughed so much in my entire life.
Noelle walks towards the window and opens it. "You're going to die" she giggles. She opens the window and