Zephyr Monologue Analysis

Death of Alpha

It rained hard this afternoon, it’s cold and I am all alone just thinking of her. Her sweet voice, her touches of Zephyr and a warmth caress from her hugs and kisses that I used to receive from her daily. I miss her smile; the highlight of the day is when she said she loves me. I miss them…I badly misses them. Whenever I am at my downcast she was always there for me. She’ll enlighten up my mind so that I could see the dawn in my dims of thinking. She’ll hold me in her arms and she’ll try to ease the pain all away. And every Sunday, we go to our Jesus wherein we thank Him for keeping us together for giving me to her and for giving her to me. After the mass she’ll hold my hand and she’ll ask me to eat street foods
My mind told me not to open it but my heart will bleed if I didn’t. I didn’t open it and she kept on shouting my name and this time it is much louder and you’ll notice that she’s really begging for me to open it. “Daniel! Please! We need to talk there’s something you ought to know!!” I didn’t answer it at first but….”Get away Alpha!” I told her. But tears started to roll down on my cheek as I tried to push her away. I didn’t know what the hell is happening to me. She kept on asking me to open the door and I held on to my words and I kept on telling her to go away until… “Open the door Daniel! I took a pregnancy test this morning and I am bearing a child!” I was under the state of shock when I heard what she said. I quickly opened the door and I’ve seen in her face that she’s really scared about that thing. She’s only 16 and I’m 18 and I don’t know how that mystery happened. “You’re joking right?” “No I’m not Daniel” “It’s not mine! I know it’s not
Is there something I ought to know Kim?” I can’t understand that nervousness on our conversation with Kim. My heart is beating so fast and my hands were shaking. I feel so nervous at that moment as if something’s went wrong. “since you’ve parted, Alpha is not the same girl anymore. She often cries, she never eats and she’s not hanging out with us no more. An account told me that she suffers from depression that causes the abortion of her child. If you only knew Daniel, I saw there when she suffers on a great depression” Kim said “so…where is she now?” I asked. “Are you dumb? That abortion causes her to hang herself on the celling! She died Daniel! Alpha isdead! She went out on her mind” I broke down…And I didn’t notice the tears when I heard what had Kim told me, I felt like half of me died. I never stopped crying from day to night there’s no one to blame for her death except me. If only I didn’t force her to make love with me, if only I didn’t leave her alone, if only I’ve been man enough to her and if only I stand on what I have done to her and to our child. If only those things can be go back then, I’ll do it for Alpha for her to live