What Is the Purpose of My Life

Over these last few months, I have felt a lot of different emotions and have had a lot of questions regarding my life: the purpose of my life, where I’m headed and who I am. I’m not sure if it’s normal to feel this way at this stage but it’s overwhelming and rather stressful.
I’d like to think of myself as two people. The person I am when I’m around my friends and the person I am when I’m alone. Complete opposites of one another. I’m loud, talk way too much and way too fast, full of energy and life when around my friends. But when I’m alone, I feel empty, confused and vulnerable. Being these two different people, it’s rather difficult to find myself and my purpose in life when I can’t answer a simple 3-word question, “who are you?”
I’ve read stories and spoken to friends and family who have had a difficult time in life- some a lot more difficult than others. Things that you would never know they had been through or going through considering the smile they wear each day. Every day around us there are people wearing masks. No not physically wearing a mask strapped on their face, but rather hiding the person they truly are. We often don’t even notice this as we are so cooped up in our own lives and live a life that revolves around me, myself and I. But someday we need to face life and deal with how we are feeling inside to fulfill our purpose and find the meaning to why we were put on this planet.
I’ve heard countless people say life is hard, life is unfair, life is this or life is that. But the fact of the matter is life is all of those things and it’s also none of them. Life just is. What life seems to be is completely relative to the person having the experience. And the reason that’s such a great thing is because that means whatever life is to you right now can be changed for the better.
I’ve had my fair share of very tough times and lowest of lows but what gets me through them to see my way back to the top is the fact that I know I’m not the first person to have that experience and I won’t be the last and if millions of people who came before me made it through even worse experiences and tougher times, I have some belief that I can get through whatever I will face in the future.
It can be tough and the trials of life can seem unbearable, but if there is breath in your body there’s life to be lived and the opportunity for change. And it can happen in the blink of an eye.
We all have so much life ahead of us if only we would realize that what we go through now only prepares us to have the strength to handle the things to come. If we allow life to flow through us with the trust that what is happening and where we are in life is right now is where it’s supposed to be and is working in our best interests, the aspect of struggle will begin to fade away.
Even if there is only one person in the world you can call a friend or who loves you, that’s still one more than the person who has no one. No matter how bad you think you have it, someone has it worse.
Thinking about all of this, I really hope I can someday find purpose and meaning to life and when I’m older, be satisfied with the way in which I’ve lived my life and the opportunities I gained and lost from fulfilled me as an individual. Throughout my short time I’ve often thought my life is hard. In some respects, yes it may have been. But I have a healthy and able body, a roof over my head, a place to sleep, a friend who cares, food to eat, and I’m still here with the chance the change things, which is much more than I need to find my purpose in life