In Moshe’s diary entries I sensed a lot of hate, disgust and disappointment. From pg.99 ‘If you ask me what I am happy about, I would answer that I feel a gladness that only serves to underscore my pain, that emphasizes our troubles, and that deepens and renews our constantly bleeding wounds.’
One thing that I learned about the holocaust that I never knew before was the mental struggles of the Jews waiting in fear of being evacuated to the death and labor camps. Moshe had at one point so much anger built up inside his thoughts that he started to believe that the whole world was after the Jews, including god, not just the Nazis. Which led to Moshe having extreme thoughts and desires for a Zionist Israel, were Jews and Jews only lived together preaching the same religion and beliefs, were Moshe could roam his mother country’s terrain all he desired. And were all Jews could be isolated from all other countries.