Personal Narrative: A Personal Experience With Major Depression

In high school I struggled with major depression and an anxiety disorder. I felt as if I couldn’t breathe. It was like my body was shutting down. The monsters that used to be pretend were suddenly inside my head. The monsters became demons to me. My thoughts were distorted. I went from a happy child to a depressed, anxious mess. I could not feel happy. It was as if all my happiness had disappeared, and I could not seem to find it. I became numb. The simplest of things suddenly became so difficult. I never wanted to get out of bed, and I never wanted to leave the house. I lost interest in the things I had loved, including softball, my friends, school, and show choir. I had stopped doing all the things that used to be so important to me. I
I was unable to move, and unable to stop the constant fear I was in. I had no relief. My body went numb, and I couldn’t move. It felt like I was drowning with no way to get out of the water. I was stuck in a living nightmare. The demons in my head needed to be seen, and they needed to be heard. I tried very hard to keep my depression a secret. I was on depression medicine, but it never felt like it was working. My doctor switched my medication a few times, but nothing was working for me. I felt hopeless, I felt like nothing was going to help, and like nothing would take away my pain. I felt like this was my life. I didn’t think it would get any better. I lost all
It's strange that the nurses put two Breanna’s in one room, but we became friends. Talking with her made me feel better. Breanna had a similar experiences as me. She was also going through similar things as me. So, I didn’t feel so alone anymore. She took me to the church service that was in the facility, and I held on to every single word that pastor said. For some reason, I felt God like never before. I always felt like God didn't care about me. I felt like he didn't love me but, it was almost like he was right there with me. He felt like a friend. I felt his love for the first time in my life. Shortly after getting out of the facility I came to Christ. I devoted my life to him. I became really involved in church and youth group. I even became a youth minister for middle school students. I had never felt better in my life. I prayed constantly that my depression would go away. Others prayed for me as well. Although it’s never fully gone away, I learned coping mechanisms and I have faith that my heavenly father will take care of me. He gave me hope for a brighter future and a happier life. I am thankful every day for the life I have been given and for my second