Narrative Essay On A Trip To Texas
One Sunday, as I was driving back home from visiting my family, it began to rain. It was just me and the boys and they had finally settled down from fighting sleep and I entered into a place of worship and dialogue with God. He began to take me back to the moment when I wanted to mend the broken pieces of my life and fill the voids with a relationship with my father so bad, that I came so close to meeting him but God blocked it.
I began to reminisce back on the moment I visited Texas for the first time in my adult life (and probably ever) and I just had my first son 6 months prior. During my pregnancy I struggled with thoughts of abandonment, not feeling loved by my father and ultimately, always feeling forgotten and unwanted. The enemy would …show more content…
He continues to strengthen me each day always reminding me that He has always been the one who fills voids. The one who has loved me then, now and forever. The one who embraces those struggling with an orphan spirit. The one who has remembered me before I was conceived and will never leave or forget me.
God continues to take these ashes of my life and make them into a beautiful testimony – From a girl who felt empty but now his grace and out pouring of love makes me whole.
God I thank you for stepping in and redirecting the focus of my prayers to be rooted in you and your heart and not in my pain and emptiness. I get lost in worshiping you because your version of my story is beyond my comprehension and there's freedom in that place of trust and surrender.
Whether it's a man, woman, job, physical move, friendships, school choices, opportunities that you think are once in a lifetime or a gut wrenching desire to be wanted by someone you feel should automatically want you, trust me, embrace the God led blocks in your life...
There's freedom (and something better than you could've imagined) on the other side of your "Here Am I" surrender... Thy Will Be
I began to reminisce back on the moment I visited Texas for the first time in my adult life (and probably ever) and I just had my first son 6 months prior. During my pregnancy I struggled with thoughts of abandonment, not feeling loved by my father and ultimately, always feeling forgotten and unwanted. The enemy would …show more content…
He continues to strengthen me each day always reminding me that He has always been the one who fills voids. The one who has loved me then, now and forever. The one who embraces those struggling with an orphan spirit. The one who has remembered me before I was conceived and will never leave or forget me.
God continues to take these ashes of my life and make them into a beautiful testimony – From a girl who felt empty but now his grace and out pouring of love makes me whole.
God I thank you for stepping in and redirecting the focus of my prayers to be rooted in you and your heart and not in my pain and emptiness. I get lost in worshiping you because your version of my story is beyond my comprehension and there's freedom in that place of trust and surrender.
Whether it's a man, woman, job, physical move, friendships, school choices, opportunities that you think are once in a lifetime or a gut wrenching desire to be wanted by someone you feel should automatically want you, trust me, embrace the God led blocks in your life...
There's freedom (and something better than you could've imagined) on the other side of your "Here Am I" surrender... Thy Will Be