My First Crush

I drowned every time I looked into his eyes, melting from the inside with the slight bit of eye contact. His eyes were as blue as the ocean, yet the ocean had trouble competing with his eyes attraction. He took my breath away by simply existing in my world. After spending 2 years together, he still gave me butterflies when he called my name. He was the first guy that ever made me feel such strong feelings.I never quite came across anything like it, and I don't know if I ever will. Too bad every thing comes to an end.
While I was drowning in his eyes, he was busy drowning in drugs and alcohol.He promised me it was a one time thing and he was just experimenting. Being as gullible as a sheep; I believed him. The first few weeks weren’t bad, he seemed happy all the time and his smile light up my world; but the sky wasn't always sunny. As the days passed, I started noticing unusual behaviour. When I asked questions he would simply shut me out. He started pushing me out of my comfort zone, making me do things I did not want to do. I use to cry myself to sleep, was it my fault? Was I not enough for him? I watched him gradually fade away, throwing away everything valuable in his life. He lost his education, people who cared for him, dignity and health. Getting kicked out of high school for smoking on school property and turning in his soccer jersey; made him abuse drugs more. We fought every day, making an argument about every small detail. He was my first crush and I didn't want to give up on him. Because it all comes down to the last person you think of at nights, thats where you heart is; and he was all I thought about. He started getting violent towards me in the beginning of grade 10; Insulting me, pushing me and influencing me to try drugs. I had grown so attached and dependent on his attention and care, that I constantly forgave him for everything he did without realizing it. Giving up and letting him go was one of the hardest decisions I had to make, but I knew