becoming a mother

Becoming a mother Becoming a mother completely changed my life. When I say “changed”, I don’t mean I had to make a couple of adjustments. I mean that it completely flipped my world upside down into something so different to what it was before. I was an outgoing person. I loved going to parties, have fun, and never be home. I really never cared about anything. I guess I was just an irresponsible and immature, like a typical teenager. When I found out I was pregnant I was only 18 years old. I was a junior in high school therefore I stated getting worried more about finishing high school and graduating. I was also scared of my mom, I had no clue how to tell her. At the end this made me get closer to my mom and realized how important she was to me. I realized it wasn’t about me anymore I had to think about my son and started to see things in a different way.
October 17, 2012 was the big day! I had to get induced because it was time but my baby wasn’t ready yet. I was slowly dying from the contractions. It was a discomfort or a dull ache on my back and lower abdomen along with a strong pressure on my pelvis. I remember I started crying and stared being mean to everyone, especially my boyfriend. It was really the worst pain a human being can go through. Suddenly I saw my nurse coming in to check on me, I told her

“please get me the epidural”. Few minutes after the doctor came with the epidural. Even though I hate needles I didn’t care that time. The anesthesiologist turned me on the side, exposing the open back of my hospital gown. Then he cleaned my spine with a cold alcohol swab. With a regular needle, he injected a local anesthetic in just the right spot. This was truly the only part that hurt. Once the numbing kicked in, I had to lie completely still. A nurse stood at my side and held my hands for reassurance. I felt the pressure of the metal cannula push into my spine. I could sense the