Dane Deha A Tragic Hero

Dane DeHaan is one of the most incredible people I've ever come to know of in my lifetime. I've never known him personally, but I know him enough. I imagine he's the type of person you'd be embarrassed to be around in public, but in private you laugh at all his little jokes, only because he'd think they're hilarious. I also imagine he's the type you can bury your soul to at 3 am during helpless nights, and he'd listen without a second thought. His caring and gentle heart and soul still leaves me in awe. I'll never get tired of him. I'll never get tired of the way my heart races when I think of him. I'll never get tired of the ache in my cheeks from smiling whenever I see new pictures or videos of him, old ones that I've seen over and over,
But, what matters, is how many times he's uplifted me. I know pure happiness is far away in my distant future, but he brings me closer everyday. Years ago, if someone had told me I'd fall for a baggy eyed, small, nearly 30 year old grown man, I'd think that's insane. But now, I can't imagine a time I didn't love him, or a time I won't. My mind everyday is on him, and I'll never comprehend that. He's the one thing I immediately think of when I need a reminder to live, or to simply be happy. He is always the first person I look to for comfort, although he can't give it directly. I'm in love with him. I'm so deeply in love with him. It will never matter to me how many times I'm told "you don't REALLY love him." or "you just think he's cute." because I know I've completely fallen for
There's also something hypnotic about the way he uses them whenever he speaks, and putting his fingers to his lips in order to think carefully about what he's about to say. His eye-bags, some may negatively talk about them, but they're one of my favorite things about him. They never go away, which makes them an important characteristic, and who he is, so I love them unconditionally. His smile, it forms endless lines and dimples around his mouth and eyes. His laugh, it never fails to brighten my day and just fade away into the warmth and comfort of it, it's like no other. His voice, it's so unbelievably soothing and deep, and connects magically with his laugh. Something I can never dream of getting uninterested in hearing. It also is unique in the way of being deep and smooth, but shaky at the same time. It's impossible for him to yell or be firm without his voice cracking and shaking. His thoughtfulness, he's constantly speaking out on impactful issues, and is careful of what he says so he doesn't offend anyone. His confidence, it's not too much as to overpower, but it's there when