Torpid Conformity

What was I thinking? “Torpid conformity was a kind of sin; it was stupidity itself”. What does this short and possibly confusing phrase mean? If you think about it, it really isn’t all that confusing. The sentence all together simply means, “Going along with the crowd instead of doing what you want to do is just stupid.” There have been many times that I have simply “gone along with the crowd” but I must inform you, that a lot of the things people consider going along with the crowd, I do because I want to do them, not because everyone else is doing them. Anything from dying your hair, to cheating on a test, to buying new cellphones, or certain clothes could be considered conformity.

Like I said, I have personally conformed in many ways. I cannot say that I am proud of it, but at the same time, I really don’t mind that I do. I have dyed my hair; I have fallen into that group of teenagers that cannot just keep their hair their natural color. I have dyed it multiple times, to attempt to morph the way I look, into an image I would like. I mean, I dyed my hair to morph the way I look, to make me think I looked better, and hopefully to make other people think I look better too. This time, I just happened to fail when dying my hair. Another thing everyone considered conforming is wearing makeup, I literally cannot go into public without doing my makeup. The little make-up that I do wear is nothing too fancy. I mean, I don’t want to get noticed or stand out or attempt to make my face look better than anyone else’s. Really, my only goal when I wear make-up is just to make myself look presentable. When I put on the make-up, I am not trying to be like everyone else, I am just trying to make myself feel better about the way I look. Because of how I was treated when I was younger, for the way I look, I changed the way I thought about myself and the way I felt I needed to look in order for that not to happen again. Probably the biggest