The Transformation Of Odysseus In Homer's Odyssey '

After Odysseus left I changed for good. I hated men more than ever. I no longer provided them the luxury of enjoying one last meal, all men that entered were soon modified then slaughtered. All because Odysseus had left me shattered, broken, and raw. What kind of a fool was I to allow him to hurt me so much? I let another man take me to bed and let him control me, as if I were a weakling. I had known that Odysseus wouldn't stay, but how could I resist him? I swore an oath and now I pay the consequences. As a result I am no longer a powerful sorceress but a lonely woman, a lame whore waiting for Odysseus to love me back.
Thinking back on my foolishness only causes me pain. I was terrified, his men stormed my place, feasted on my food, the fools soon turned into pigs. One had escaped my palace to warn Odysseus. What would my tale be without the great Odysseus?! The man sat down and ate my food, he wouldn’t turn into a pig! As soon as he finished he stood and ran at me with his great sword, fear had gotten the best of me, later I would come to know that Hermes, the messenger god had given him a herb to resist my sorcery, he had also told him
Maybe Odysseus would love me back. Maybe I’d get over him one of these days. After all this time I still wish for him to come back. The fact that he’s left me feeling the same way that Agapios had left me way back then. Agapios had torn my heart, used me, and wrecked all that I loved. That man had me where he wanted. I know now that he never really loved me. He was only using me for his personal gain, my powers were the best thing about me in his opinion. He used them to gain power and riches. How ironic that his name means love , because he never once felt that for me. The worst thing he did to me was leave. After he left I couldn’t go on. I had missed his brutish ways, but i had found him again. He wasn’t going to leave my side ever again. I had found an interesting way to keep him at