'Shamehead In Denis Johnson's Beverly Home'

In Denis Johnson’s short story “Beverly Home” Fuckhead is now sober and has a job which he takes seriously. He is starting to take a new approach in his life by trying to fit in at his new job and see everything through. Despite, his sober living he is still considered a “freak” based off his thoughts and actions. If he was a “whole man’ he would have be honorable, respectful and brave. Fuckhead is seeing a woman, whom he has a sexual relationship with but doesn’t have an emotional connection with. If he was a “whole man”, he would want to establish a deeper connection for the woman he is seeing. He would take their relationship, to the next level. He would open himself up to her fully, she’s seen him naked physically but not emotionally. Fuckhead would be more respectful towards women if he wasn’t a “freak”. A whole man
They want to feel love, be happy, they need it just like Fuckhead. He is ultimately looking for happiness just like the residents of Beverly Home. He only appears to be happy because others are happy that he has a job, so his “happiness” is really not his own, but of others. Therefore he is not truly happy and true happiness is what he is looking for. He will never find true happiness until he is willing to live his own life. Fuckhead lacks the ability to be content, all individuals lack the ability to be content with their lives. He is not content because he is living his life up to the standards of society. The only reason he got a job was because people seem to believe he should look for a job. Once he got a job, he believes he is happy because other believe getting a job was a happy thing. He isn’t living his life in accordance to what makes him happy, he is living his life by how others think he should be living it. It is hard to live life without being influenced by others wants and