Senioritis

The first time I actually heard the word senior used to describe me, it was a very surreal experience. It felt as if I had waited my whole life to be called a senior and now I finally got my wish. Despite my yearning to be a senior, I never really thought about what the word "senior" really meant to me. The day I honestly started thinking about what the word meant I was in awe, for it had never occurred to me how fast time goes by, how in a few months I will be out of high school, and how I will never be in the same building or classroom with any of my classmates ever again. It also occurred to me that the dreaded disease known as "senioritis" is defined by the experiences and revelations a person has when they are a senior and that I was catching this disease rather quickly. With all the revelations I experienced in those moments of deep thought I became completely overwhelmed with many different emotions. I experienced excitement about the fact that I am almost finished with high school, but I also experienced fear and anxiety about many of the aspects of being a senior. Soon I would have to start filling out college applications and focusing more on the future than on the present moment. I was also very terrified because I knew that soon people would start asking questions about where I want to go to college and what I want to do with my life. These are the kinds of questions I cannot answer yet. The last emotion I experienced was sadness because this year would be the last I would spend living in the same house as my parents or getting to spend a lot of time with my family. Along with affecting emotions, "senioritis" has also changed some aspects of my daily life drastically. Instead of using computers just for entertainment I actually started using them to research colleges and career paths to help me think about what I want in life. "Senioritis" has also positively affected me by making me more decisive. It has also taught me to value time and not to