Personal Narrative-Self Defining

Essay 1 - Self Defining A laughter came from my mouth as jokes were being made about a kid sitting alone at lunch by those in which I surrounded myself by, people whom I considered my friends. Our entertainment came everyday from teasing others, because in middle school, that’s what the “cool” and “popular” kids do, and that was who I wanted to be. It continued to go on throughout the school year, and I continued to laugh. However, everyday I found myself laughing less and less, and I never realized it untill one day, I was no longer laughing. I sat at a table at lunch surrounded by girls laughing at the kid sitting by himself at the table across from us, but I was the only one who was not laughing. I looked over at the kid who sat there quietly,
When I did this, I began to realize I was going to be starting high school in less than a year and it really made me start to question my identity and not only who I was, but who I wanted to be and what type of person that was. I really started to examine who I was friends with and surrounded myself by, what I said, the thoughts that went through my head, and the vibe I put out to others. After doing this, I concluded that none of it was what I wanted it to be and that I was not who I wanted to be. I started to question if my parents knew everything that went on in my life and if they saw me at school everyday, if they’d really be as proud of me as they are or if they’d rather be disappointed in me; and the answer to that question was by far not what I esteemed. At this point, I was having an identity crisis and I felt lost by all
That time when they take a giant step back and look into the mirror, staring at their reflection, contemplating what exactly they are looking at and who exactly it is looking back at them. Within Loretta Stewart’s essay, “The Mirror” she describes what she sees when looking into a family heirloom mirror, not only her family’s past, but also herself and how exactly she wants to break the cycle of failure her predecessors have created. Often, when someone takes a look into a mirror all the see is simply what’s on the outside, the bare minimum, but like Stewart said, “mirrors should reflect a little before throwing back images” (Stewart 17). Take a look into the mirror, but don’t focus on the image that’s staring back, look deeper and take a moment to reflect on who and the