Personal Narrative: My Mormon Life

I didn't fit in well as a child. I was diagnosed with adhd before I can remember. So my learning disability had been stealing confidence from me bit by bit my whole life. My husband makes me confidant. It's easier now. Until I moved in with his Mormon parents. I'm not going to lie I really just wanted them want them to like me. I am not Mormon I'm not religious at all actually. I am agnostic so I don't think entirely that the Mormon religion is wrong. I just don't know. My whole life for some reason I just thought that all people were the same in the way of not not liking people or judging them until you know them no matter there life style. At least that's how I am and in the back of my head I know that wasn't true but I just felt that way with people I knew.
About a month ago my father in law mentioned to me in conversation that he thought I was a narcissist. I mean who admits that to someone?! He also said that I am completely different now. Hopefully in a good way... he did not say. So Before I had a baby I was shy I mean social phobia shy. His parents have tons of kids who have tons of kids. The first day we were back I met his whole family which is a lot of people. It was scary. Living in a different state with people I did not know. My husband wasn't my husband at the time and we moved to Utah so we could make a life together. We met in North Dakota we worked together. He was on the run from a probation violation. He had to turn himself in a couple weeks after moving to Utah. No idea what his sentencing would be. I could be living with his parents these strangers for who knows how long... Here we