Now this is where I`m supposed to write “all about me”. This is where I become lost. I mean, come on. I wouldn`t know where to start. But I guess the best way to have an idea what makes me tick and what ticks me off is by checking my journal that i fill with endless ramblings about whatever and whoever catches my fleeting fancy or rage. :)…
Natalyia Jenkins, I don't even know how she convinces my mother she innocents. I don't like this girl one bit - correction, I hate with a passion. One day we were in the Bahamas, my mother thought it was okay to plan a surprise trip. For Just the two of us, I went for 2 days and left her there. Broke...…
We rushed out of the door as we felt relieved that the horrifying experience was finally over, but it was definitely worth the long, but seemingly short wait into the asylum. Every Halloween, my mom and I will return to the Baldwin Asylum. We will always remember the fear that ran throughout our veins before we take our first step into the darkness once again.…
“I’ve was working out and practicing, trying to learn new stunts for cheer season.” My favorite excuse to use when I was asked about my weight and the marks on my body. I never thought a small goal like wanting to lose a few pounds for summer had the possibility of evolving into such an unhealthy obsession. June came, a month away from my 13th birthday, and within that month, another twenty pounds were gone. The first time my mom noticed the weight was when I hit 140 pounds, I had lost 40 pounds and cheer season was right around the corner, so I had an excuse. Weight continued to fall off my body until I hit 125 pounds. That still wasn’t good enough for me, but losing any more weight seemed almost impossible. After a week without seeing any…
I was immersed in the arts before I even hit the earth. I always told that when my mom was pregnant with me she would raise Jamiroquai to the highest volume and dance around the house with my dad, and this sums up my childhood.…
Contemplating about things I have done, I realized that my pursuit for beauty and perfection is one of the reasons that drove me to spend time on these activities. This desire, however, is not my main motive.…
I had been overweight since my early teens, as time passed it continued to worsen. at the age of 15 I was on the brink of obesity; I had to decide a change in my life. My life had consisted of school and video games; these combined had led me to an unhealthy lifestyle. I had dedicated years into my video game hobby, but this was the least active of my time. My hobby had to go, a new hobby had emerged: bodybuilding. Bodybuilding had given me a satisfaction that my previous hobby did not give, the satisfaction of working; that patience and efforts lead to greater satisfaction than momentary things like video…
I was raised in a good Christian home with my father as a pastor and my mother as a nurse. Most people would assume that having such upstanding parents I would automatically get a painless childhood; however, I can remember multiple hardships that I had to face as I grew into my adult years. In these difficult times I was able to turn to music in order to gain solace in these dark times. One song in particular that specifically got me through a rough spot was “I Am Not Alone” by Kari Jobe.…
Being left to fight alone is devastating for anyone suffering from any form of mental illness. If a person you know seems to be struggling then reach out and connect with them. I can guarantee that showing that you care will make a huge difference and possibly save that person’s life. When you find yourself in a position to help someone, feel blessed because God is answering that person’s prayer through you. It can something as simple as the mixed CD I made for Bob to listen in his taxi, it just shows him that he is loved and that someone still cares about him.…
I will never forget that day. I was about 11 or 12, going into my last year of middle school. I remember the way my grandmother and my father sat me down in my grandmother’s lavishly decorated living room. The tenderness of their voices and the pointed looks they gave each other alerted me to the fact that something was just not right. After a few more minutes of mental preparation, they dropped the bomb on me that affects me even until this day: my mother, a longtime recovering drug addict, had relapsed.…
“One for the Money” by Escape the Fate”, And it’s one for the money and it’s two, for the show and three are you ready let's go. Escape the Fate - "One For The Money"…
I heard my mother's voice whispering in my ear to get up. She cried” “get up baby wake up NOW!” i woke in a panic not knowing what was going on. I looked around for my mother but she was nowhere to be found. Suddenly I hear i window bust open. I quickly went to see where the noise came from and there it was the boogie man.i was so afraid all i could do was scream in terror. I didn't know weather to run or drop to the floor. I remember my mother telling me when the boogie man shows up pray to god because he is the only one who can take the bad thoughts away. So I instantly dropped to the floor and prayed. “Dear god please take these gut wrenching hallucinations away in jesus name I pray amen.” I opened my eyes and just like that he had disappeared. The window was not broken and i could finally breath again. It was like he was never there.…
When I was little I had a favorite shirt that said “I know I know go to my room”I had another shirt that said “INSANE IN THE BRAIN” and it became true I am insane in the brain and if you want to know more about me then you will have to know my problems,past,and my family.…
When I was younger I never truly understood mental illness. I never expected that I would be affected by it. When I was sixteen, I experienced feeling anxious especially around people, chest pains, and occasional panic attacks. I had no idea what was wrong with me so, naturally, I Googled it. I concluded that I probably had social anxiety.…
Beginning around the seventh grade, my mental health began to decline. There was no direct rhyme or reason as to why I was not happy. I would sit alone and consider all of the “what-ifs” of life and essentially think myself into oblivion because all I could see in life were the negatives. I began to push all of my friends away and I attempted to isolate myself. My mentality truly became a problem when I began to to look at myself with an extremely negative image.…