Personal Narrative-Control

Tapping the table anxiously waiting for that buzzer to finally beep, I am ready to end this. beep, beep, beep. My self control wasn’t always the best. I would speak my mind often. My mouth was at times as fast as a Nascar and as out of control as a tornado. I was at a debate tournament and I was about to ask the opposing team my questions about the South China Sea conflict. I was so anxious to ask but couldn’t due to the timer. My impulsivity is pretty unique. It’s like my super power in that it can really help me in situations where I need to think quickly and when dealing with people, but it can really be hard to control at times and work against me. It could be compared to the Incredible Hulk and his rage and super-strength. There are times where I’m able to exercise self-control, but others where it’s harder to.
How did that just come out without me instructing it? How did I let myself give in and lose it all? This was a prime example of my impulsivity being a negative impact on me and others, and something I’ve since worked hard on to overcome. I realized right away what I did was wrong and something that I wanted to make up for. I wrote her a letter of apology and we met in person to discuss what happened. I was both lucky and grateful that she gave me a second chance, but also cautioned me to always be aware of both who I’m speaking with and what it is I am