Narrative Essay On Anxiety And Anxiety

For me, I get really bad anxiety about speeches. While I wait to go up, my heart begins to pound and it’s hard for me to breathe. I try and give myself encouragement and pray for strength and for the words to flow easily out of me. Before I’m even up there, I start shaking, though. My legs and my hands are the worst. Along with the shaking, my palms get sweaty. I wait there trying to tell myself I’m fine until I am told to go up and do my speech. That’s when I panic. When I start out, I think I’m fine. I begin like everyone else, but then I look down at my notes as my speech is continuing. I can see my hands shaking. They always shake, but they shake terribly when I’m up in front of people. That’s the moment where any sort of calmness in me is gone. I have a fear of public speaking, so this is where that fear comes out. What usually happens is my voice begins to shake. I rush sentences because I can’t breathe. My breathing is ridged and shallow. I can’t seem to get enough air into my lungs. This then lasts throughout the entire speech. I’m in this
Hansen’s history class we all had to read passages out loud. I would always freak out. I would look in on the syllabus and see what those days were, so I could try and mentally prepare myself, but that never seemed to help much. I remember on one of those days, she had me read a long passage out loud. I was doing good at first, but then I could hear my voice shaking, so then I shut down like I usually do. I couldn’t breathe, so I couldn’t read the sentences. I took a lot of long breaks to pause after sentences, but I had so many left. I was afraid that she would ask me why I stopped, so I gathered up the courage and asked, “Can someone else read please?” I was so embarrassed and just didn’t want to cry. My eyes were watering and my throat felt lumped up. She let someone else read, thank goodness, but I remember always getting bad anxiety before reading