My Nursing Moment

What is the most defining moment that impacted your decision to become a nurse?

As many of my peers might agree the decision process to pursue a nursing education was more of a journey than one bite spark of a single moment in time. Looking reflectively through this magnifying glass of time, I see many points of lights that lent clarity too my decision cutting’s stone moment. I use these words with purpose in that I personally experience a redefining process most easily related to a tool used to sharpen dull blades. The fire that is yield during the process creates a magnificent precise piercing instrument, from that which was once too easily discharged. I have struggle with low self-esteem issue for the most of my 44 years of life. I share this not for any plea of attention but as simple explanation to my lack of desire to attend a very demanding educational process that will require me to be very sure of my actions and judgment calls. Up-until this period in my life, it was easy to follow
I found I could make okay income with overtime paid and could work the hours I desired by being just a hard worker. This allowed me to raise my small children with my mother’s help. Being her only child my mother was well okay with this as long as I did all that I could to pull my weight as the saying goes. This bring us to that defining moment, I provided end of life care for my mother at home, with service form home healthcare nurses and doctors. The time scattering moment was when I was faced with my lack of knowledge of my mother disease process fuel maybe by guilt or just simply inability to effect any change for her. She was my strength in so many ways. Here in that moment I stood lacking. I am not foolish enough to believe my actions now can effect a change for how I view that life event; however my security blanket has been pulled off