My Biggest Fear

Fear is a form of a phobia and is something that lives within us no matter how big or small. Everyone has fear but some people try to hide it more than others do. Fear usually develops during ones childhood. Fear also comes in a variety of common things such as Snakephobia (fear of snakes) or Hypsiphobia (fear of heights) but there are uncommon fears as well such as Hadephobia (fear of hell) or Heliophobia (fear of the sun). My biggest fear is actually very common called Coulrophobia (fear of clowns). For many people such as myself, the cause of coulrophobia develops during our childhood, affecting us in many different ways, and it stays with us well into our adulthood affecting our lives even today.

Many of our fears develop when most of us are young. My fear developed on October 31, 1997, when I was seven years old. It was Halloween night and my brother and I were not able to go trick-or-treating because we were sick. My mom and brother were going to watch a scary movie, so I went to my room to watch cartoons. After a while, I became bored, so I snuck out of my room to see what my mom and brother were watching and if it was scary. I didn’t know this at the time but the movie they were watching was called IT. Anyways I came in around the time where the clown was coming up out of the toilet to murder one of The Lucky Seven. I remember the clown having a white painted face, a big red nose with a smile beneath it, a very colorful costume and big, long, sharp fingers and nails. I started shaking and sweat started running down my face and chest. When he began creeping up behind his next victim, I screamed and ran back to my room to hide under the covers. After that night clowns began affecting my childhood badly.

I began having terrible nightmares about clowns trying to kill me. However, after having them every night I realized they were just nightmares. That I would always wake up from them before they got too bad, so I learned to deal with them. Not too long...