Monologue From Frankenstein

Who will I be?

I wake up and smell the bitter scent of coffee in the kitchen
I feel my head on my fluffy pillow and the only thing I can think is: who will I be today?
I think about how we are just a speck compared to the rest of the universe
But I think about how the impact I can make can change history as we know it
I know I am special, I know I am loud, I know am outspoken, I know that I can change history
I hop out of bed like a hunter stalking its prey
I know I am ready to take on this day
This is my year
This is my time
This is my moment to show how this dark world is a place that means something
Yes, I know there is hatred
I know that there is terror
I know that we are unstable
But that is why I am here. I am here to combat that. To take
I think about how I have done wrong
How I am wrong
How I am just a boy
A monster
A dark mysterious creature of the night
And suddenly I am sad
I am sad that I am not perfect
I am sad that I am not who I want to be
I quickly lose any optimism that I had before
I feel like my life is one big chain
A never ending dilemma
A wheel of stress that I seem to spin on over and over
And yet It is like I feel nothing
I feel numb and tense at the same time
Like I am wolf who eyes its pray but feels wrong killing another animal
I am a contradiction
I am like algebra in complexity and yet its like I don't even know the first step to step to solve my problem
Multiple levels with many equations just waiting for people to explain me because I can’t do it on my own
Because trust me I need help
I need someone to interpret me
To fix me
To balance out this complex equation I am and turn me into standard form
I am an equation with no solution
There is no way to help this monster I have become
Yes I am mean
I am angry
I am annoyed, infuriated and enraged
But I am still me
And even though there is an evil side to me I am still a