I saw myself transforming like a werewolf, a mutant tag of DNA suddenly triggered, replicating itself insidiously into a syndrome, a cluster of telltale Chinese behaviors, all those things my mother did to embarrass me-haggling with store owners, pecking her mouth with a toothpick in public, being color-blind to the fact that lemon yellow and pale pink are not good combinations for winter. (189)
Jing-Mei’s perception of what it is to be Chinese is isolated to the things she saw her mother do. She has never been submerged in the Chinese culture and does not understand how she could become Chinese.
More importantly, she does not understand the true desire of her mother’s heart in reuniting with her long lost twin half-sisters from her mother’s previous marriage. She believes in her heart that “their mother “and her mother are two different people. (191) Jing-Mei has repressed feelings of inadequacy. She feels that she was less loved then her twin sisters because throughout her mother’s life, she was always in search of them. “All the times when she got mad at me, was she really thinking about them? Did she wish I were they? Did she regret that I wasn’t?” (197)
Cited: Neifert, Marianne E. “Family Quotes: Quotations about Family”. Notable Quotes. 17 Oct 2013 Tan, Amy. “A Pair of Tickets.” The Norton Introduction to Literature. Ed. Allison Booth and Kelly J. Mays. New York: W. W. Norton and Company, 2011. 189-205. Print.