lady macbeth suicide letter

The oceans have refused to rid the blood that stains my once pale and innocent hands. Even the strongest bleach in this dammed world cannot cleanse my body of the guilt I have forced upon myself. We have been consumed… No blinded just at the mere sight of power. And now all I can remember is the blood. The metallic taste burns each and everyone of my taste bud off of my tongue until all that’s left to taste is my very own blood. The smell has clinged to me like a perfume I have been drenched in. The sound.. A blade tearing through skin… human skin.. then the color, it was so vivid. As if you were staring at the sun with your bare eyes and they caught fire. And the feeling. Warm, dripping down my hands, seeping into my clothes. I find I am no longer able to walk without slipping on the pools of blood that cover my bedroom floor. There is no escape. Not even in sleep. I was overwhelmed by ambition.
Thane of Cawdor
King
The very though made me shake with excitement but now I can only tremble with fear. Your letter announcing you had become THANE OF CAWDOR was the spark that lit a flame of my ambition.
I love you..

But I’m not the only one falling apart here… You’d be lying if you said you weren’t. And us together, were falling apart. We only have eachother to trust however you no longer have trust in me. This path we have chosen.. Its not like we imanged it to me. We loathed power, status and respect. We’ve received betrayal and hatred. All that’s left is the screams of a mother and her children, that wont leave my head. I have sunk into an empty abyss and cannot find my way out . This depression has taken me as a hostage and no one can rescue me, no matter how hard they try. I don’t see a light at the end of this tunnel. I can only hope that in death I will find peace. Life here is just no longer bearable. I’m exhausted; this depression has become so insidious that I can no longer see my future.

You may view me as a coward but I believe I am more