Journal Entry: High Levels Of Personality

Journal Entry #3
Personality
After taking the personality test I discovered several things. Based on the test I have high levels of openness, extraversion, agreeableness, and neuroticism. I also have a moderate level of conscientiousness. I like the fact that I have high levels when it comes to openness, extraversion, and agreeableness. When people interact with me their perception of me is positive. However, I also don’t like that I am very agreeable. Others see me as very trusting, friendly, and cooperative. Sometimes because of this others try to take advantage me. For example, I knew a girl a couple of years ago that had a dog. She would constantly be gone for hours in a day, and would not watch her puppy. She knew that I tended to be home more than her. So, she asked if I could watch the dog while she was gone. She thought I was very responsible and helpful. So, I agreed to help her out because that is the kind of person I am. Although, instead of it being something that I helped out with once in a while it turned into a daily task that I did. She basically stopped doing the heavy lifting because she knew that I would do it.
I have been struggling with negative thoughts and insecurities my whole life. I tend to work myself up over little things, and I tend to constantly compare myself to others. I always wonder if I am every good enough for anybody. What I don’t like is that people tend to see the most obvious parts of me. I am very agreeable and extroverted. However, when they see that, they think that I am all around a secure individual. When in fact, I am struggling to regain some type of emotional stability, because I want and need to be more secure in myself. It's almost as if people are seeing the mask that I want them to see because I don’t want anyone to know of my internal