It was Monday, May 30th, 2011. My family was driving home from a hotel we were staying at in Virginia, after going to Kings Dominion for my birthday day the day before. On the way home, we stopped at a Cracker Barrel for breakfast. During our meal, we got a call from my aunt telling us that my uncle, my mother’s brother, was in the hospital. Only a few days before he had moved back to Guatemala without saying goodbye to me. Once we were back on the road, my mother continued to get phone calls updating us about what was happening down there, as each call came through we all became more and more anxious wait for the answer. Then it came it just wasn't the answer we were hoping for, my mother began pushing on the walls of the car as if they were…
On a cold December day one week before winter break my life was flipped upside down. I was a 5th grader waiting for my mom to pick me up from school after tutoring but, my uncle picked me up that day I asked him, “Where’s my mom?” “Why didn’t she pick me up?” My uncle redundancy , didn’t say a single word to me during the car ride home. As I got to my house, I saw the ambulance outside of my house, hoping nothing was wrong. I open the door hope the first responders weren’t there but as I open the door I accidently hit one of them with the door. As I stepped into my living room saw my mother on the stretcher unconscious, not speaking, not moving. I saw my little brother and little cousin crying their eyes out, I started to bawl also and start screaming ; “Why did this have to happen to me?” “Why my mom?” At that moment, I didn’t know what was happening.…
I looked around and I wasn’t in my room anymore, I was in the hospital during my grandpa’s surgery. The waiting room was cold and sterile and the smell of antiseptic was so strong I could taste it. Waves of uneasiness washed over me as if they were trying to drown me. My grandma and my mother were sitting in the room with me and they looked just as scared. I remembered how long my grandpa was in surgery to get his windpipe removed, how I had thought that I wouldn’t make it through the hours he was and that if he didn’t then I wouldn’t make it for much longer afterward.…
I couldn't help but notice, how shady the hospital actually felt and looked. I simply felt I did not belong there, and wanted an immediate out. There were "cute" little drawings of children among the walls, followed by some intricate drawings that truly varied in complexity. I couldn't help but think that these drawings had been strategically placed there in order to try and brighten up the days of some individuals in need. Around the corner, I noticed a tiny prayer room. This of course, is found in a hospital, since it provides comfort for individuals that are not going through easy times. It allows for an escape from reality, and momentarily allows us to relax, take deep breaths, and simply let out our problems, so that we are able to return to reality, and overcome the bothersome obstacles that happen to be in our way…
It was now or never in the white room full of beeping machines surrounding me. The doctor had just told me that I was dying. My heart sunk to the ground as hard as an anchor. The ghost-like faces in the room were my parents, as they sat there more lost than ever. I now knew I had to fight not only for my life, but with myself. Remembering the sting of the tube down my throat and IV in my arm, I reluctantly moved closer to the plate. This plate full of food staring at me was now my medicine. It took every muscle in my body to pick up the forkful of peas. The gravitational pull of my fingers clinging to the fork was unbearable, as though my body was screaming for me to put it down. It has been months since I have been this close to a plate, nor picked up a fork. I closed my eyes as the tears came streaming down my cheeks and opened my quivering mouth. I moved my shaky hand towards my mouth and poured the peas over my tongue. As I swallowed, I felt every pea go down like they were slitting my throat. This was putting poison in my body, as I felt the guilt clawing at me leaving invisible scars of fear and anger behind. I…
“Mom, mom, mom, mom!” I was practically screaming. I already knew what she was going to say. I just sat back on the couch and watched as a tear streamed down my face into my hand. I eventually fell asleep on the couch. I woke up at three in the morning and I could see the sun peaking out with the stars and moon retreating back until another night. I don’t know what came across me but I thought to myself why people are so cruel. I looked outside to see if anyone was out there. I just saw an empty street, just like one of those old ghost towns in old western movies.…
Before I could even comprehend, my aunt was convulsing, with eyes rolled back and foam forming at the mouth. Hurriedly, my mom pulled her out of her wheelchair and rolled her on her left side. When the paramedics arrived, it felt like the universe was in slow motion. Voices seemed a million miles away, like soft echoes ricocheting off ragged cave walls. I was infinitely in shock; I could not process my surroundings. Mom rode in the ambulance, while I rode in Grandma Vita’s car. This moment would be the last time I saw Aunt Dori until tomorrow. The hospital was abnormally clean. Some rooms emitted no sound, however, others squealed well into the night. I never in truth noticed patients. Windows and cemented columns at every turn. The air conditioner was blasting from all angles. The doctors came by and solemnly murmured they desired to speak with my mother in private. Their eyes said to leave. Furious, I stomped off to the visitor waiting area. I may have appeared enraged on the outside, but it was all a charade. On the inside I was panic-stricken and somber. What was wrong with Aunt Dori? Why could I not attain answers? Mom returned with a pained expression on her face as the doctors calmly strode away. I recall her breaking the news to me sighing, “Do not worry, sweetheart. Everything is going to be fine.” She relayed the information from the doctors frankly, holding nothing back.…
On the word excited she let go of my leg to wave her hands in excitement and my day got a whole lot worse. Pain was all that I knew. My world became a white hot flame of pain. My brain was filled with not so silent screams as my leg dropped off the table. I wanted to die the pain was so bad. Cursing and pleading came from the nurses as they tried to get my leg up and hold me still. I wanted to be still but i was no longer in control. I was shaking and screaming with the pain of a searing hot knife stabbing me over and over in the hip. I blacked out. I woke up in the hallway rushing way to fast to be safe. I was still in pain and i was still shaking. People were staring as i rushed by screaming bloody murder. It took ages it felt like time was molasses and there was no escape. More screaming came from nurses and doctors alike as i was rushed into my room. I heard my father yelling and a face came into focus. That face of the nameless nurse was the only thing that calmed me down. And it helped that she said the only thing that could make me feel better. “Lets knock him out.” they injected me with morphine and my world went…
The feeling as I turned the doorknob was blank. I was all cried out. I sat on my bed till my mom would be home from work. Each minute felt like a second and soon enough I heard the door open. My house creaked as I heard my mom walk towards my room. I began to mentally prepare myself. She came in sat next to me and asked ¨So you want to tell me what's going on?¨…
Once again, I found myself wandering through the uncomfortable, brightly lit halls of the hospital. I was to find the room where my father was, an all too familiar task. "Room 443", I was told by my mother who had requested me to take my dad back to his apartment. Upon entering the elevator I let out a sigh of apprehension and turned to wearily push the button labeled "4". Whiffs of disinfectant products meandered themselves inside my nose while I looked around to see egg-white walls and nurses shuffling about in their bright, floral print scrubs. One of them approached me with a kind smile. "May I help you?" I briefly responded saying I needed to find my father, Charles Jolitz. "Go down the hall. He's in the last room on the left." Slowly making my way to the door, I speculated about what had happened to my dad this time. I entered the room thinking to myself, "Boy, he looks worse every time.", his salt and pepper hair ruffled, beard unshaven and a look of loss on his face. Though as soon as his eyes met mine, that face lit up and the corners of his mouth upturned into a smile. "My chickadee!", he exclaimed. I asked him how he was feeling and if it was time to go as the nurse carted in a wheelchair. All three of us made our way down to the lobby exchanging small talk. I dashed to my car, happy to be out of the dreariness that is a hospital. I hoped he would tell me why he was there yet again. Once in the car, he told me in a few words that he had had another episode due to taking his pain medication with a fifth of vodka and had lost control. He ended up dialing 911. My dad hurriedly changed the subject asking if I was hungry and if I would like to go have a burger. I let out another sigh. "I'm sorry, Dad. I'm not hungry, I've already eaten but I can take you to get one. We can go for lunch later this week." "Alright, sweetie.", said he. We arrived at his apartment complex and I walked him to his…
My hospital bed was ice cold and the bleak and empty white walls depressed me as the uncomforting thought that I would have to stay here for maybe another week brought tears to my eyes. The usual and oppressive smell of disinfectant lingered in the room as I recalled that night in my head, trying to convince myself it wasn’t my fault, as I had done everyday since the accident. It was the day everything changed and my life was turned upside down. Forever.…
I let my feet feel the carpeted stairs inch by inch. A found missing flyer was framed on the wall as I paced up and down the hallway my head was out of my mind or was it my mind was out of my head? Screaming. Screaming. Screaming. It never stopped! Where was it! I banged on the wall over, and over, and over, and over again. I ran to the closet door and opened it. There it was; the screaming. There she was; the girl. I couldn't see her, but I could feel the chill. A victim. I closed the door. My eyes crossed and rolled back. A shot of adrenaline shoots up me. The screams poor out of my mouth. I can't control it. I try to close my mouth, but I can't. I start walking down the stairs at a fast pace. Foaming at the mouth I try to get myself together but I can't. Why. Before I know it I'm picking up my gun and walking at an even faster pace out the door, but how. Something's pulling me, but nothing's there. I'm walking faster, and faster, and faster. Past the river, past the boat, into the water, to the shore, through more woods. Walking, and walking, and walking, and walking. I stop. My upper body seems to collapse, but my legs keep me stable. I look around as if I'm checking to make sure no ones there. I take the gun to my head I start to weep and call for help... But I'm already…
As I stood there with my stomach in knots, not knowing what’s going to happen next, my wife laid screaming on the hospital bed. The sound of her heartbeat monitor beeping in the background and wires attached to her chest. “You can do this“, I told her. “Now push!” I grabbed her hand. She squeezed it until the tips of my fingers turned purple. The nurse was counting down 10, 9, 8. “Alright we need one more big push”, the doctor explained. I leaned over and…
So some time had passed, and I was missing a lot of school because I was staying in the hospital during these times really felt useless and couldn’t do much of anything about it. Every week my heart was giving out on me felt as when you ball your fist up and your nails stab your skin. I hated going to school because all eyes were on me and I didn’t like the feel of that. I’m Sitting in my English class and we were reading “ To Kill a mocking bird” it was my turn to read and I felt my heart in my chest just stop and I hit the ground. Everything happened so quick; this one was the worst of them all. When I regained consciousness I had a automated external defibrillator attached to my chest my school nurse then started to give chest to chest compressions. Basketball season was going on at this time I was on the team but could hardly ever play because of everything that was happening with me at the time. My sophomore year ended for me early which was dreadful. It’s my senior year now and I’m healthy and have more motivation than I ever had I’ve learned that their is nothing to big that can stop you. Taking AP classes this year and even when I’m tired and still have work to do I just stop and remember the times that I couldn’t do my work because of always being in the hospital. Life through my eye’s is different i'm thankful for every second I…
I woke up in the hospital, the room was stuffy and the air had a undertone of bleach. Beautiful framed pieces of art hang the wall. There were vases of flowers in the room. I look around, every surface was dustless. The nurses were unhurried, they moved with a serene peacefulness from room to room on their rounds. Above the double doors were large blue plastic signs with the area of the hospital that lie ahead. I got this overwhelming feeling of wanting to cry. Brick by brick my walls were tumbling down. The feeling punched through my empty stomach ripping through my bones, guts, and muscles. I knew Ms. Anna would be upset.…