Getting Got: A Short Story

I don’t often date but when I do it is rare that I allow someone into my existence long enough for me to begin liking them. If and when we do get to that point, I am still gripped by the fear of expressing my feelings only to subsequently loose that person. It’s a silly game many of us have created in our minds. I prefer to call it “Getting Got”. See “Getting Got” is the moment when you feel comfortable enough to share your “like” for someone that has been chasing, wining and dining you. They get you and you in turn open up only for them to begin distancing themselves. The thought of liking you too much creeps up and “Sugar Honey Iced Tea happens to get too real!” At least this is what you perceive the situation to be and choose to exist in
Should I have let him get this close? Did I show too much too soon? I’m I getting clingy? Does he think I’m getting clingy? A flood of questions overwhelm your mind and you can no longer just enjoy the journey. In the beginning you attached no meaning to him or your experiences with him. He was a nice person that you saw yourself being friends with then it got deep. Why? What is the shift that takes place in our consciousness that turns peace in chaos, excitement into fear and possibilities in probabilities? What happened to just Being, Being here now. LIVE, not in the past of what has happened or the future of what could happen. It is a simple reality that most of us have yet to grasp a hold of. We terrorize ourselves and our ego takes over our common sense. Let it go! Be here with the present as it is and as it isn’t. Disconnect from those thoughts and engage in positive affirmations encompassed in the essence of now. Let’s release the façade that we create for the one we like and tear down the idol of perfection we think they represent. I am ready to embrace every aspect of this journey but what I won’t embrace is allowing fear to be its truth. I will be present and positive and Get Got by Whatever I am to Get Go by. Who is to say it won’t be