First They Killed My Father
First They Killed My Father.. quotes
Death and Revenge: * P 146 - I hate the soldiers... I etch their faces into my memory and plan for the day when I come back and kill them. * P 159 – We are all different now... I am sad and many days I wish I am dead. * P 143 – My hate empowers and scares me... Rage makes me want to survive. * P 251 – Holding on to my hate for the Khmer Rouge soldiers also allows me to go on living the mundane details of life. * P 168 – I need the new memories that make me angry to replace the old ones that make me sad. My rage makes me want to live just to come back and take my revenge. * P 142- ... My stomach hurts so much I want to cut it open and take the poison out. * P 167 – I occupy mu mind with thoughts of revenge and massacre. * P 146 - ... Plan for the day when I can come back and kill them. * P 157 – I am going to kill them on. * P 132 - ... Hunger and death have numbered our spirits. It is as if we have lost all our energy for life. * P 139 – There is so much hate and rage inside me now. The Angkar has taught me to hate so deeply that I now know I have the power to destroy and kill. * P 227 – My rage made me strong and resilient... Now, however, enclosing the memories in my heart and mind is unendurable
Family and Insecurity: * P 5 – I don’t understand this, but I like the smile he gives me... I believe everything Pa tells me. * P 305 – Chou always asked about what I was doing – I never wrote back. * P 143 - To hope is to let pieces of myself die. To hope is to grieve his absence and acknowledge the emptiness in my soul without him. * P 262 - ... Everything about Khouy gives you the impression of hardness. * P 157 - ... Helpless and unable to protect his own family. * P 156 – They have hurt you, my poor little monkey. * P 84 – Kim knows he has to endure their cruelty to help feed his family. * P 122 - ... To protect myself, I often have to rub dirt
Death and Revenge: * P 146 - I hate the soldiers... I etch their faces into my memory and plan for the day when I come back and kill them. * P 159 – We are all different now... I am sad and many days I wish I am dead. * P 143 – My hate empowers and scares me... Rage makes me want to survive. * P 251 – Holding on to my hate for the Khmer Rouge soldiers also allows me to go on living the mundane details of life. * P 168 – I need the new memories that make me angry to replace the old ones that make me sad. My rage makes me want to live just to come back and take my revenge. * P 142- ... My stomach hurts so much I want to cut it open and take the poison out. * P 167 – I occupy mu mind with thoughts of revenge and massacre. * P 146 - ... Plan for the day when I can come back and kill them. * P 157 – I am going to kill them on. * P 132 - ... Hunger and death have numbered our spirits. It is as if we have lost all our energy for life. * P 139 – There is so much hate and rage inside me now. The Angkar has taught me to hate so deeply that I now know I have the power to destroy and kill. * P 227 – My rage made me strong and resilient... Now, however, enclosing the memories in my heart and mind is unendurable
Family and Insecurity: * P 5 – I don’t understand this, but I like the smile he gives me... I believe everything Pa tells me. * P 305 – Chou always asked about what I was doing – I never wrote back. * P 143 - To hope is to let pieces of myself die. To hope is to grieve his absence and acknowledge the emptiness in my soul without him. * P 262 - ... Everything about Khouy gives you the impression of hardness. * P 157 - ... Helpless and unable to protect his own family. * P 156 – They have hurt you, my poor little monkey. * P 84 – Kim knows he has to endure their cruelty to help feed his family. * P 122 - ... To protect myself, I often have to rub dirt