Fellow Soldier Monologue

Again was clueless and because he was a fellow soldier, I never thought he would try anything. The corporal was about to get up, instead he slammed me back on the bed and pushed up my gown and ripped my panties and the more I struggled the more he put pressure on me. His strong legs pried my legs opened and I remember looking at him, shocked like I can’t believe you are doing this. He put his hands over my mouth so that I couldn’t scream. All I could feel was all his weight on me and then I felt him penetrate me. I left my body as he pounded himself inside me. I left for that moment, I just remembered being somewhere else, I remember struggling, but it wasn’t working not only was I absent from my body, I was absent from my room, I was absent
Corporal Harris’s voice played in my ear “If you tell anyone they won’t believe you because I am the captain’s boy.” So because I was new I didn’t want to make waves. So even though others knew what happened to me, the right people didn’t. I held my head up high and continue to do my job, have relationships and living even though I was hurting inside, I kept living because I had a job to do. He was not the only who took advantage of me, there were others one in particular forced me to jack him off. Again, I stayed silent and did my job. My relationships were full of lies and deceit verbal abuse and a whole lot of cheating not always on my part. Then Operation Just Cause happened this sent me to the jungle for 3 months, where we prepared fuel system supply points so that the aircrafts like cobras came to hot refuel as they bombed Panama City. The conflict was over by January and my time was soon up after two years, I was assigned to go back to the states. I had to keep pushing, I had to put all that behind me. I had a son to raise and I had to leave even though deep inside I wanted to give up. I had to live on, I had to, and I was proud on the outside but screaming on the