My religious paradoxical inquisition is in essence, faith.
I was raised a Christian, my father’s side more devout in their faith then my mothers. I was baptized in the Presbyterian Church in Laramie, Wyoming. I was around six months old. As a child I went to Sunday school, sometimes because I had to, sometimes because I wanted to. This continued until I was old enough to have other activities that conflicted. Because I had first hand experience within the Latter Day Saint culture while briefly living in Utah, religion always had a certain allure to it. While in Utah my sense of wonderment towards Christianity seemed to diminish while my skepticism of all religion increased. In my jaded beliefs it is no longer fair to call myself a Christian; however, I believe I still am one.
Is it that I am too skeptical to be so blasphemous as to reject Christianity? I am not admitting that I am an agnostic. Christianity appears not only in my actions and thoughts, but also in my subconscious dream state, a state which mirrors the divine and reveals a desire for divination, and an unhealthy fear (though some would say healthy fear) of the Devil. Because I am unsure how dreams correlate to reality, I ponder in theory and thought. Scratching my chin, gazing at the stars; perhaps the strongest connection I have to Christianity is the desire to have a connection to something greater than anything I can literally perceive. My faith is infinite in that I believe in almost all possibilities until I have tangible proof otherwise.
Presbyterian theology embodies the sovereignty of God and the Bible’s authority (1007 C.6). What I find troubling about these beliefs is not so much that there is a God, but that God is believed to be omnipotent. Why does Presbyterian theology include reference to the Bible’s and God’s authority? If God created everything, what created God? Humans can comprehend the existence of God only because it is important to the human psyche within the story of mankind and human evolution. Religion and the Bible are nothing more than a historical documentation of early human consciousness.
The Bible is comprehendible and accessible to the masses due to those who teach it not unlike University Professors who teach other philosophical outlooks. The big difference between this wealth of information is the wealth, or lack of wealth. Church for the most part is free, however my tuition fess can attest to the fact that university is not. The want of knowledge is evident from the moment Eve took the fruit from the tree but the prevalence of Religion has been seen since the Abrahamic religions and is still seen today from missionaries that walk door to door, to the buildings of faith. Buildings of faith are churches or temples or synagogues or monasteries or any other place of worship. Tangibly creating the perception of God, through the manifestation of fantasy with colossal architectural transcendence into buildings of faith, seems to me to be a logical basis for the acceptance of religion into the human consciousness.
God created the human psyche with limitations so as not to be Godlike, but to resemble God, and it wasn’t until an act of defiance that the human consciousness began to expand. It is understandable to have faith in our own existence because we can interpret our experience through our senses. Religion is made possible through the existence of churches and other religious places of worship. Therefore I believe the Bible to be a manmade invention of authority. This is not to say I do not believe in God or the significance of the stories within the Bible. But the stories within the Bible are just stories; interpretations and translations of what was said and done.
Protestant Religion and Presbyterian Church Act, 1707.