Esther Definition Essay

Confinement that Further Confines Recently I had something happen that really put me off- it keeps me up at night and makes me feel like somehow this is all my fault, even though I know that is not the case. It has caused me to pull away from the people that use to fill my life with happiness and laughter and has consequently, been the reason I run to my room the second I get home every night to take shelter under my sheets. I know that personal pronouns and accounts are not to be used in these, but I know that being able to understand and relate her will only help me. On Sunday, when the little “organism” fell out of me, after the initial shock and panic had subsided, I could only help but think “what terrible thing it was that I had done”(Plath, 143), just like Esther herself had thought. Even though I had no clue I could possibly be pregnant considering all necessary precautions had been met and there was no way it should have been physically possible, I still feel like I did something to harm the very thing I would have loved the most in my life. This is what I not only believe, but know, happened to Esther. After being denied to the writing program, Esther suddenly and without any warning from her mind, began spiraling uncontrollably. She thought that she herself had not done enough to ensure her eligibility in the program
The deeper and deeper one delves into the novel or even Sylvia’s backstory, the clearer it becomes that depression, especially in this case is not just sadness and is instead, an abyss. Even though it is typical that a family would be affected by this and not just in the way of not being able to believe shock therapy didn’t