Essay On Holden Caulfield

Holden is a character that neglected children can understand. He’s depressed and can’t accept the reality of life because he is emotionally disconnected from society. He doesn’t know what it like is to have affections so he tries to be like Allie because he envies all of the attention he receives; Allie is the façade that Holden wants to become since his family has always neglected him, in which creates the absence of affection.
Holden starts to introduce himself, but ends with a nonchalant and distant tone by describing himself and ending it with “and all that David Copperfield kind of crap, but I don’t feel like going into it” (1). David Copperfield is a book written by Charles Dicken, which happens to be an autobiography about David. So
He wants to be like him. Red is a symbol for love, warmth, and desire; by wearing the hat it displaces his yellowness: yellow represents cowardice, egotism, and betrayal. He is yellow because he’s a coward for acting out and ruining his life because of the death of Allie. He is egoistic, or selfish, because of his mother lack of attention and affection. Even though, the death of his brother has left her senseless. He feels betrayed because it seems like his mother doesn’t love him, but she’s disconnected from reality as well. All she thinks about is Allie’s death and hasn’t felt healthy ever since (107). Nonetheless, those negative aspects dissipates when he puts the hat on because it warms his soul with thoughts of Allie. The thought of Allie comforts him since he is the only person that can save him from his conscience. He talks to Allie when he needs comfort: “Allie, don’t let me disappear. Please, Allie” (198). He believes that Allie can protect him from getting lost and leaving the world unnoticed. In a sense, Allie’s death gives Holden the opportunity to have meaning again, but his parents continue to ignore and neglect him. Although, the selfish desire of attention continues to follow him because he wants to be like Allie. He wants to be loved. He wants attention and
It nearly killed him (212). It killed his envious self and relieved him to move on being a child to an adult. He has an epiphany that he no longer has to try to be like Allie. He can mature and be himself to become a man that his parents will love. He can reel in their love and hold onto them with positive actions that will make. Not only does he ends up being content with his life, but now he is no longer distant and can connect with other people emotionally. Although, Allie will forever be in his heart, he does not have an envious love towards him, or a sense of guilt. He is not holding onto the Allie, he is holding onto the thoughts of Allie as a likable brother that everyone loves. He has accepted the fact that he did not kill him, that he cannot save him, that he cannot be like him. Nonetheless, Holden can finally move on and mature. He is no longer a child-like Allie, but an adult-like