Diary Analysis

Depression

There is strange smell of chemical in the Doctor’s chamber. We see Doctor and Yangchen having a conversation.
Doctor: what did you do yesterday whole day. Can you write on the diary or piece of paper?
Yangchen: I would like to speak rather than writing in a diary.
Doctor: Why?
Yangchen: Because I feel relived while speaking to someone.
Doctor: okey … where you were yesterday
Yangchen: I was home for whole day.
Doctor: Are you on pills?
Yangchen: yes I do la.
Doctor: How was it? Is it effective?
Yangchen: I don’t know. I don’t know.
Doctor: How was your sleep?
Yangchen: I could not sleep well. I don’t know why, because if I didn’t eat pills then I can’t sleep.
Doctor: Is this happen to you every time?
Yangchen: yes.
Doctor: Are
and I used to call her Bumchu.
Doctor: What your husband do, is he waiting outside the chamber? Let him in.
Yangchen: He is finance officer at Minister of agriculture and we were divorce.
Doctor: What happen? How it happen?
Yangchen: I was drug addition.
She starts to cry as loud as she can and it last for 30 minute, than she suddenly stop to cry.
Doctor: Oh! That was the reason for your divorcé?
Yangchen: I know he love me.
Doctor: okay. Then why you two are separate from each other.
Yangchen: At first I was just a party freak, slowly I started to drink. Every night I used to drink and come late night, and his mother was unhappy to see me coming so late drunk. It is all because of his mother, but I know he still loves me.
Doctor: mmm… okay go ahead…
Yangchen: He was force by his mother to give a divorcé with me. I know it was not his discussion.
Doctor: Are you still on drugs.
Yangchen: yes I do.
Doctor: why are you taking such harmful substance?
Yangchen: I can’t sleep without it.
Doctor: If you keep on going like this ….what about your daughter. She is only five years old, can’t even think what is going on with her parents. Don’t you want that your daughter future secure? Do you want to brought up your daughter in a dirty environment? Think of
Yangchen: Yes, they took away from me. They think that I am not capable to handle her. They think that I will ruin her future.
Doctor: Okey…first you try to minimize your drinking and drugs habits and then proved that you can handle your daughter so that they can trust you.
Yangchen: Do you think that I didn’t try… I try lots to clam my daughter from them but I fail. I know that it’s my fault, I even regret it, and I manage to overcome from drinking abdication but they had portray in such a way in the court which I had to surrender my daughter to them. I actually completely stop drinking but I don’t know how I went into the drugs. I love her so much and I desperately need her in my life.
Doctor: Look … this is not the end of your life, divorce doesn’t mean end. It means that your one potion of chapter is close and starts with new beginning with new story. Your one potion of chapter is ruined by your bad habits, so you have to think, work accordingly and proved that you are the best mom ever to your daughter.
Yangchen: Theory and practical can’t go together in reality.
Doctor: I know, I understand your feeling and it can’t go together but it is not even an impossible task to you. You really have to work on it, so that one day your daughter come back to you and say mama I love you. You are the best mom in this