Abandoned Creative Writing

Abandoned
Loneliness is “without a company” or “destitute of sympathetic or friendly companionship, intercourse, support, etc.” It is isolation and “the quality of being unfrequented and remote.” Loneliness occurs typically after a break up. After being with your loved one for so long, his/her departure leaves you feeling isolated. Their departure leaves you feeling hopeless. You miss their presence, their smile, their laugh, their everything. You feel emptiness inside, as you continue with your every day life. You feel that someone you loved so much is gone; your heart cannot bare this feeling. Your heart cannot bare the feeling of isolation. Instead of replacing it with love, your heart replaces this void with emptiness, with loneliness.
All the low whispers and voices fill the room with noise. Listening intently, I hear conversations about people attending future events… “Did you hear about Lucy’s party this Saturday? I am definitely going.” “Are you going to watch Shakespeare in the park?” I see people speak to one another, socializing, and having a great time. I feel jealousy towards those who are talking with another human being. I want to have a conversation with another, even if the topic is something as meaningless as “What’s your favorite color?” Even as I am in a room crowded with people, loneliness makes itself heard. Loneliness makes me have absolutely no one to share my thoughts with and no one to share the emptiness I am feeling inside. However, this feeling is not only a misconception created by my own mind. Loneliness is when people make it known that they do not want to be your friend. It when people purposely ignore you, when they make you feel like a pariah. It is almost as if they created an invisible box to keep you apart from the group, to keep you apart from their conversations. And this pertains to families, as well. Loneliness is when your parents, siblings, and relatives believe you are a nobody, therefore, you should not deserve attention. Loneliness derives from a lack of attention towards a certain someone. It is when everyone else is being praised, except you. It is when you are an outcast, when you cannot fit