A Moment That Impacted My Life

There are times that are ingrained in everyone's mind. Some of these moments are filled with joy, and some are filled with pain. The moments impact us in some way. When asked to look at a moment that impacted me. I can only choose one, the moment that made the biggest impact, when my mom died. That event forced me to think in ways that I never had to before. Our roles changed, we became more independent. We looked after ourselves. We kids also help start dinner before dad came home. A role in my first eight years of life I had never had to play. This impacted me emotionally, mentally, and socially.
The day started out well, woke up to go to school in a dorky t-shirt with a jeans. It was snowing! The snow was dancing as it was falling. Going to school like any ordinary day. Started off the day with second grade. Hanging with my friends, and learning our basic subjects. After school we would wait for mom to pick us up from school. We would do our homework. We had an Italian dinner, pasta, garlic bread, red sauce, all the good stuff. Mom took a nap, for that we did not know would change us forever. Pain, panic, anger, and so many more emotions are running through me. As the world seemed to stop when the words escaped
I lost the motherly connection most kids need when they are growing up. That connection that helps most kids get through life. It also makes a difference when involving any couple that loses one of the set. She was my rock in all storms. She was everything I needed as a kid. Losing her is the hardest thing to go through every day. She had this ability to make me calm when I was upset. She was the super mom that most kids dream of having for a mom. Before I was a happy go lucky child with nothing, but a smile. Now I am harden to the world’s truth about how life is actually. To most that is a sign of depression. To me it is a defense for me not to breakdown and be sad all the time for the fact I lost