He get discourage after all his degree, that white people still considered him inferior which made him believe that the chronic world of racism will never change thinking escape is the only option. When Grant was chosen by Miss Emma to teach Jefferson, who was about to be excoriated become a man, he had no faith in himself neither his society, nor his church. He fears committing himself to a fight he cannot win. This apathetic attitude makes him shun responsibility.
He feels flustered thinking to himself how can he teach someone else to become a man when he himself is not sure that he is even a man? Not only does he think he can’t help Jefferson become a man circumscribe his teaching as no effect on his students, and also considers himself powerless to changes his own life. This is one reason he abandons religion, because the redemption of mankind contradicts his belief that environment dictates our life’s