It seemed like my thinking process changed instantly. When we walked through our front door I left my problems at the mat and it was all for her. I just couldn’t stop thinking about how amazing her life would be and everything I was going to teach her. I have extreme OCD, which I’m medicated for, so that was a challenge because I needed everything to be perfect for her. Realizing that life was full of bullshit was learned within the first few weeks of me being a mother.
While I was pregnant I started to study for the Hesi exam because I knew I was interested in the nursing field. First thing to do was for me to obtain my home healthcare certificate so I could go back to work faster, but after me doing that for about a month or so I hated it. When Camri was two months old I went and took my Hesi exam and I did really well!! I was happy because I had studied so hard and long, and I saw the rewards right in front of me. Once I took that test and enrolled into school I knew I was on the right track. Between then and now I have ran into a few obstacles, but as you can see I made it back and I couldn’t be happier.
Camri’s father and I were together at the time, but things were really rocky and we technically didn’t live together so thing were a little harder for me. They weren’t hard in the sense of me not knowing how to deal with my daughter, they were hard because I was lonely and I wanted that father daughter interaction with them. The one thing I could always