I fell in love with an amazing girl. Granted I’m only 18 years old and most people doubted the maturity and promise behind my so called “love”. People told me that my youthfulness and raging hormones must have been confusing lust for love, that it’s natural at such a young age to mistaken the two. I’m sorry, but I had to disagree. Was it lust that put a smile on my face whenever she entered a room? Was it lust when the mere thought of her brought about feelings in me that I can best describe as euphoric? I may be a teenager, but those feelings have nothing to do with “getting in her pants” or “becoming a man”. Even if what I do feel is immature in the eyes of another, it is the realest thing that has ever happened to me in my life to this point and is the only thing worth writing. I fell in love with a girl who became my everything…I fell in love with a girl who didn’t feel the same way about me. The problem people have is that when we fall in love, we fall with the hope that our object of affection will be there to catch us. We put all our trust and faith into thinking that this person is different from all the rest. That he or she will catch you and keep you from hitting the ground. I fell for someone who I thought would catch me. But instead, she let me fall to the ground and my heart shattered on impact.
Suffering through heart break or any kind of pain for that matter is an essential and perhaps an unavoidable part of life. I was in a very dark place for a long time. I’ve heard about the trama of getting your heart broken and seen it in films and t.v. shows. I always felt some extent of sympathy but never something extremely serious. but I felt like an empty shell of myself, everything ok on the outside but empty on the inside.