writing improvments

Writing Improvements
I’ll be honest, English wasn’t and still isn’t one of my strong points in my education. During my high school years, my essays had suffered partly due to the fact that my grammar and organization of ideas weren’t consistent with the structure. That is, my ideas would abruptly change from topic to topic with no overall flow at all. Lacking experience in writing and reading, English was my most challenging subject. I despised writing. I felt that the subject was useless. The writing compartment in my brain was extremely restricted. I lacked flexibility in the use of words and phrases. I had the vocabulary of an elementary student. A typical sentence of mine would start with "I", "It", "Because", "The", "But", "Therefore". It is extremely difficult for me to receive the grade I wanted on my essays. My grades had suffered as a result, and I would always be looked down upon by my teachers. I remember one particular teacher with the name of Ms. Sidle. I have heard horror stories from former students of her class. The way she grades essays is the epitome of strictness. People have called her cold hearted, and the grades she hands out reflect just that. When junior year arrived, I was in for a nightmare, as I was scheduled into her class. I winged the class, but barely. I asked for help from all my resources (students and other teachers as well). Even though I had passed the class, I didn’t pay much attention to the subject, as I was occupied with just trying to pass the class. I do understand that her teaching methods are strict because they should help you when you enter the real world, but too strict is another thing of its own. Because of the lasting image she left us when we passed her class, my mindset was changed. I disliked high school. I thought of it as a huge waste of my time. All I was focused on was getting into college, and focusing more towards my major. Hey, as long as I am able to speak and write perfectly fine enough to get my point carried across, I was fine right? Unfortunately, this was not the correct mindset to have. I realized that many of the lawyers and the reports created for companies are anywhere from ten pages to over a hundred, outlining the viewpoints and arguments that the courts use. Recently, I read up on the lawsuit filed by the justice department towards the AT&T and T-Mobile acquisition. AT&T countered the lawsuit with a twenty-five page report. This made me wonder and ponder upon my current English skills. Just how are they able to put their points and positions into a huge twenty five page report? I was baffled, yet length is what gives majority of lawsuits the winning advantage. Laying out all the points to the complete maximum closes most of the loopholes and exploits that can be cross-examined and countered by the opposing party. As I researched more and more on the reports and the structure behind the legal documents, I became more and more impressed at the work that individuals can put out. Expanding further into journals and documents that news anchors and reporters compose, the grammar and organization is just phenomenal. In the professional world, my viewpoint was just completely wrong. Thinking that college would be an investment in my future, I now believe that I should treat English with more emphasis, because even a simple thing such as a resume for job applications can and probably will have a huge impact on my chances of being hired by employer. I just hope that going through college’s English composition 1 and 2 will help me develop my skills in writing essays in the long run.