Totaliterainism

I would like to say that this came easy to me but unlike other things to didn’t.   No to sound cocky but there are very few things that I don’t get the hang of in a fairly short amount of time but writing this personal statement has taken a hug effort on my part. The trouble is I have so many ideas that I just want to put down because two pages are not enough to get to know someone.   There are so many facets to me that it almost seems like an injustice to you to claim that in these two pages you can actually experience who I am.
I at first wanted to pick a defining moment in my life that shaped me as Nicholas Japaul Bernard.   I could say it was the moment that I first died as Javert in Les Miserable my freshmen year.   Something about falling backwards off of a man made bridge a good nine feet in the air and hope against all hope that stage crew but the mats where they are supposed to be changes a man.   Or I could talk about the day that I met Julia “Jules” Natoli.   She was the catalyst that brought about drastic changes in my life; some for the better and some...not so much. Jules was something more than a best friend because at time I just couldn’t stand her.   Her haughty disposition more times than not turned me off and on several occasions I wanted to tell her that she was being silly and wasn’t as good at singing as I had or she claimed but I couldn’t.   You see the fact of the matter is that she is as good as she claims herself to be so I cannot logically find her at fault.   Who am I to blame because she was blessed with talent?  
So I spent a lot of my time trying to catch up with her.   Every time I made some sort of break through with my talents whether it be in voice, or acting she would always be one step ahead of me.   I knew consciously that it was an unfair comparison, her being a highly trained opera singer and I a naturally gifted musical theater aficionado, but being human gives me the crippling ability to ignore the truth and continued to... [continues]

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