Reflective Essay
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The Most Decisive Moment in my Life
Last year was the most turbulent period of my life. I spent the whole of it in pubs drinking beer and gaming girls. I didn’t pass the baccalaureate exam, nor did I live up to my family’s expectations; I was the most disappointing and miserable member of my family. At first, they were looking after me and trying to guide me, but in the end, they forsook me and left me to myself. They started demeaning me and considering me as a burden who tarnished the family’s reputation, and who didn’t stick to the rules. Due to that, I almost committed suicide and ended my pathetic life. However, one day, everything has changed. I have turned from that pathetic family member to that person who everyone is proud of. I went with my friends to the beach. We sat beside a pretty foreign girl who attracted me and my entire group. I started making some moves and dancing in front of her aiming to get her attention, but she ignored me and pretended as I wasn’t there. After that, I saw her staring at me and giving me the same look of underestimating as my family did. I felt like my chest would blow up, and I also felt that girl somehow managed to realize that all the enthusiasm that I had shown her before was just a cover to hide my true feeling. At that moment, every bone of my body was shaking, and I almost lost control and unleashed all my fury on her. Fortunately, my friends rectified the situation by asking me to play football. After that, I went swimming with them even though I was barely walking because the football game tired me. Nevertheless, the cold water stimulated my body and replenished my energy, so we started swimming fast and trying to catch up with one another. However, in a blink, my energy left me. I stopped to take a breath, yet there was nothing to stand on. My heart started pounding quickly. My body was paralyzed from fear, and
The Most Decisive Moment in my Life
Last year was the most turbulent period of my life. I spent the whole of it in pubs drinking beer and gaming girls. I didn’t pass the baccalaureate exam, nor did I live up to my family’s expectations; I was the most disappointing and miserable member of my family. At first, they were looking after me and trying to guide me, but in the end, they forsook me and left me to myself. They started demeaning me and considering me as a burden who tarnished the family’s reputation, and who didn’t stick to the rules. Due to that, I almost committed suicide and ended my pathetic life. However, one day, everything has changed. I have turned from that pathetic family member to that person who everyone is proud of. I went with my friends to the beach. We sat beside a pretty foreign girl who attracted me and my entire group. I started making some moves and dancing in front of her aiming to get her attention, but she ignored me and pretended as I wasn’t there. After that, I saw her staring at me and giving me the same look of underestimating as my family did. I felt like my chest would blow up, and I also felt that girl somehow managed to realize that all the enthusiasm that I had shown her before was just a cover to hide my true feeling. At that moment, every bone of my body was shaking, and I almost lost control and unleashed all my fury on her. Fortunately, my friends rectified the situation by asking me to play football. After that, I went swimming with them even though I was barely walking because the football game tired me. Nevertheless, the cold water stimulated my body and replenished my energy, so we started swimming fast and trying to catch up with one another. However, in a blink, my energy left me. I stopped to take a breath, yet there was nothing to stand on. My heart started pounding quickly. My body was paralyzed from fear, and