my first day in upm

Its been four years ago but everything seems so fresh. It was a beautiful dream turn into endless nightmare. He was my source of strength back then, unfortunately he was my weakness now. I gave him my love but he broke my heart too many times its felt like I've been acting like an idiot for so long and surprisingly everything seemed to be beautiful, see how bird-brain I am when it comes to that jerk. When I was in high school my life is almost perfect I've got my parents trust, great true friends, I'm one of the top in school and by that time my first priority was my boyfriend who was very supporting and loving. He never asked anything more than what
I can't give. I really did tried my best to be the best girlfriend.
Were not the type of PDA of couple but we really show our love and affection with each other. We both push each other to be good in school.Until that day when he said he can't continue us. My world fall apart for a moment I just left the room with my best friend when I was in high school and cried .When I came back for the next class I saw him but everything seems to be different and he was somebody that I used to know. And that moment I realized I have to be better person for him I forgot myself, to better for myself.
Months later of ignoring him I realized I can't left him I can't go on I tried to be with other guy but I can't imagine my fairy tale with other guy but him. I continue to be with him we've got a mutual understanding I'm always there for him even sometimes it's really painful what should I do I'm inlove with him. He would left without any words then back. And worst I was glad to accept him in just simple sorry. That happened three times for four years. Until one day, I just woke up and realize that I don't deserved his treatment. I'm always trying my best for him instead of for my parents and especially for myself. I end it, I'm tired he didn't said anything as usual and we both go on separate ways. Its been