A letter to me.
By the time you read this letter you will be done with your junior year. At the age of 17 I have so many hopes and dreams about where you would be, what you would be doing and with whom you would spend your life with.
Honestly, I have no idea where I would be in 10 years but I hope everything is going through a right path.
I feel lonely and just constantly think of things which let me down. I never feel like I am myself in front of people, even the people who I am confident enough to talk to. I am tired of whom I am and everything I got on my back to carry with. I am tired of acting, tired of lying, tired of faking and tired of my days being afraid to show my real self.
I am not a perfect person and I know that. I make mistake much more than an ordinary person does. Whenever facing hardness, the cold, and the difficulties, my tears blow out like a stream from my eyes. My heart is weak and could be broken like glass falling to the ground. I always need a shoulder to lean on and the reasons to hold on and fight. I always need someone to rescue me when I am drowning in pain and place me back on the right path again.
But you know what? You also do not supposed to be perfect either. No matter what anyone thinks or says, you don’t have to try to be perfect all the time. I hope you would give yourself a break and stop trying for once. Just let go and free yourself of negative thoughts.
if things don’t go according to plan for you, I wish you all the love, happiness and joy in the world and don’t clear up with anything less than the best since that is absolutely what you deserve.
Keep in mind; you will never be this young again. Your body will never be more supple and powerful, your mind, more awake and aware. Your heart will never be more open and unafraid, and you will never be more alive than you are right now. Enjoy every second. Always know that the people who want to stay in your life will...