19 Feb. 2013
As an athlete you can get to see the different types of attitudes and emotions other athletes have, good or bad. In high school I started playing sports which really got my competitive side out but it also came with emotions I didn’t know how to control at the time. My first time playing volleyball I started off by practicing and playing with the varsity team at school. When season came along I didn’t make the cut for varsity so I was put on the J.V. team with girls who didn’t know how to play that well. That’s when my emotions started to show because I wasn’t used to playing with a team where I was the only one that knew what we had to be doing. After that season was over the next two years I was on varsity and I was still not able to get ahold of my attitude and emotions. I was aware that this was a problem for the team and I and that I looked bad but I didn’t know how to control it so I let it be. My last season I had learned to control myself but it was very limited and it wasn’t enough. When I finally graduated my coach asked me if I would like to help him with the team, I agreed. I started going to their games and practices and noticed two of the girls had the same attitudes as I did and felt how frustrating it was to deal with them but I decided not to pay attention to them. It was at one of their games when it hit me and I realized that I used to look as bad as they did and I was really embarrassed of myself. At that point I made myself a promise that I would keep my emotions and attitude on check if I played in college I wanted a fresh start and I’ve kept my promise till this day.