I feel so trapped in this house, I haven’t been able to leave this place for years now. I am still currently living my brother Nathan Radley and he makes me feel like this house is hell. He won’t let me out or do anything fun around the house. I feel like a prisoner inside my own house. There is no hope of excitement in this house, absolutely nothing to do at all. My neighbors down the street, these two kids named Jem and Scout think I’m some kind of dangerous killer and I have no idea where they got that information from but they do seem pretty interested in me. I don’t know exactly why there interested in me but I am going to find out why and I hope I can become friends with them soon. Im just a stranger to everyone because I haven’t stepped out of these doorsteps in years and I hope Jem and Scout don’t keep that same impression upon me. Even though Jem and Scout think I am a psycho I am going to be really nice and help them out when they need it.
There is this knothole in front on my house by some tree, so I thought It would be a smart idea to put two pieces of gum inside so Jem and Scout could find it. I thought it was a good idea because all kids love gum don’t they. I just hope they spot it and find it or else it will just sit there and will be of no use. This could be my first chance to impress the kids even though they don’t know its me. I hope my brother Nathan doesn’t find out that I’m sneaking out of this house to do this because I’m not supposed to. Yesterday I heard Jem run out and hit my door, they got scared and ran away right away. I wish I could have came outside and said something but you know I couldn’t. So instead I just looked through my window. But there was this kid with them that I never seen before, a short chubby boy waiting with Scout. Even though I feel guilty about sneaking out last night I hope Jem and Scout find the gum.
Yes the gum was taken by Jem and Scout themselves, I feel so happy right now. I figured I’m gonna keep putting stuff in the knothole so kids like Jem and Scout keep taking it. Jem is pretty good at football, I saw him playing yesterday and he run with the ball pretty well. I just realized it was the last day of school so I thought I put two Indian Head Pennies. They seemed pretty satisfied when they got it so I’m happy. I still wonder if they found out who is putting all this stiff in the knothole. Anyways yesterday I saw Atticus scolding Jem and Scout because they were playing a game that was apparently about me so my feelings were hurt because I thought Atticus doesn’t like me or something. Sometimes I wish I didn’t have this bad reputation of me because all the kids are scared of me and Maycomb County too. I’m just a normal person looking to do no harm to anyone just helping when help is needed. This window here is the only place where I can see the outside world.
I haven’t seen the kids playing outside much because they can’t be playing all the time. I saw Miss Maudie talking with Scout yesterday, I still remember when me and Miss Maudie used to talk she was so nice to me. I wonder what she was saying to Scout. I was thinking about what had happened last night when Jem ripped her pants trying to run away. I got out of the house to fix Jem’s pants because they got all ripped up when he tried to run away. And that gunshot after I don’t know what’s wrong with my brother I have no idea why he fired that he’s just scaring the kids more. Anyways it was the least I could do for Jem. But my feelings were hurt a little because the kids are always playing a new game with me I don’t know if its on purpose or they’re just a little curious about me. I would be curious too if I were in that situation. I’m just happy to see the kids get along friendship was always important to me.
I was wondering what I should put in...